I was sitting on my bed.  I was packing my suitcase.  My best friend, Amy, was sitting on the bed.

      “You are so lucky,” Amy said.

      “I know, going on tour with the Backstreet Boys, dream come true, I can’t believe I won that contest!” I said.

      “Will you tell Brian about me?” Amy asked.

      “If I have the chance, he’ll probably be with Leighanne, she’s the one meeting me at the airport in Orlando,” I said.

      “That bitch,” Amy said.

      “Amy,” I said.

      “Well, she doesn’t deserve him,” Amy said.

The next day, I was on the plane to Orlando.  The plane landed.  I walked out of the gate and looked around.  I saw a blond girl looking around.  I went over to her.

      “Excuse me, are you Leighanne Wallace?” I asked.

      “Yes,” she said.

      “I’m Britney,” I said.

      “Oh, yes, hello, welcome to Orlando,” Leighanne said.

      “Thank you,” I said.

      “Come on, let’s go meet the guys,” Leighanne said. 

I got my suitcase and we got into a limo.  I looked around.

      “First time in a limo,” Leighanne said.

      “Yes,” I said.

      “Well, this won’t be your only time, so, Britney, how old are you?” Leighanne asked.

      “I’m 20,” I said.

      “The same age as Nick, when’s your birthday,” Leighanne said.

      “February 4^th,” I said.

      “Seven days after Nick, wow, you know what, Nick’s single, he just broke up with Mandy, is he your favorite Backstreet Boy?” Leighanne asked.

      “Yeah,” I said smiling.

      “Have you ever had a boyfriend before?” Leighanne asked.

      “Yeah, but we broke up, he cheated on me, I broke up with him, I’m afraid to get involved with anyone else,” I said.

      “You just have to find the right guy, well, we’re here, this is mine and Brian’s house, you can stay with us,” Leighanne said.

We got out and the front door opened and Brian came running out.  Nick was right behind him.  Nick tackled Brian and they wrestled. 

      “Brian Thomas Littrell!” Leighanne said.  They stopped and got up and brushed themselves off. 

      “Hi honey,” Brian said.

      “Nick, Brian, this is Britney,” Leighanne said.  I smiled.

      “Hi Britney,” Brian said as I shook his hand.  I looked at Nick. 

      “Hi,” Nick said as I shook his hand. 

      “Well, come on in and meet the rest of the guys,” Brian said.  Leighanne and I went in.  Nick brought in my suitcase.  Brian came in.  I saw Kevin, Howie, and AJ in the living room. I saw two girls.

      “Kevin, Howie, AJ, this is Britney,” Leighanne said.

      “Hi Britney,” Kevin said.   I shook their hands.

      “This is my girlfriend, Amanda,” AJ said.  I shook her hand.

      “I’m Kristen, Kevin’s wife,” Kristen said.  I shook her hand. 

      “So, Britney, you haven’t talk with us, only Leighanne, is something wrong?” Brian asked.

      “I’m just shy,” I said quietly.

      “Well, you don’t need to be shy around us, you will be spending the year with us, we have to get to know each other,” AJ said.

      “Okay,” I said softly.

      “Britney, it’s okay,” Leighanne said.  I nodded.

      “So, Britney, tell us about yourself,” Kevin said. 

      “I don’t like being center of attention,” I said.

      “Britney, it’s all right,” Leighanne said.

      “Okay, my full name is Britney Sue Hardin, I was born February 4^th, 1980 in Lathrop, Missouri,” I said.

      “Who’s your favorite Backstreet Boy?” Nick asked.

      “You, Nick,” I said.

      “He’s always the favorite,” AJ said.

      “Hey, no one can resist the blond hair and blue eyes,” Nick said.

      “Do you have a boyfriend back home?” AJ asked.

      “No, I had a boyfriend and he cheated on me, I haven’t dated since,” I said.

      “Do you have any friends?” AJ asked.

      “Yeah, I have a best friend back home, her name is Amy,” I said.

      “Who does she like?” AJ asked.

      “Her favorite Backstreet Boy is Brian, and she hates you, Leighanne,” I said.

      “What,” Leighanne said.

      “She calls you a bitch and says that Brian doesn’t deserve you,” I said.

      “What do you think about me?” Leighanne asked.

      “I totally disagree with her, she liked Samantha but hates you, I don’t know what’s wrong with her,” I said.

      “She needs to be in a psycho ward,” Howie said.

      “That’s true,” I said.

We all talked and got to know each other.

      “Do you have any nicknames?” Howie asked.

      “My mom calls me Brizee, everyone else calls me Bri, you guys can call me Bri,” I said.

      “Okay, Bri, what’s your favorite color?” Nick asked.

      “Green,” I said.

      “What’s your favorite food?” Brian asked.

      “Pizza!” I said.

      “What kind of pizza?” Nick asked.

      “Pepperoni with extra cheese,” I said.

      “What’s your favorite movie?” AJ asked.

      “Armageddon,” I said.

      “What is your favorite scary movie?” Nick asked.

      “Scream 2,” I said.

      “What is your favorite TV show?” Brian asked.

      “Friends,” I said. We talked all night.  

Chapter 2

The next night, Leighanne and I were in my hotel room.

      “I can’t believe you talked me into going out tonight, where are we going tonight,” I said.

      “To a club,” Leighanne said.

Ten minutes later, we arrived at the club and we walked in.

Brian and Nick were standing over by the bar.

      “I can’t believe you talked me into coming, you know I don’t like clubs, Brian,” Nick said.

      “I know, hey, there’s Leighanne and Bri,” Brian said.  Nick looked at the door and saw Leighanne and Bri standing there.  Nick stared at Bri.  She looked beautiful. 

Leighanne saw Brian and Nick at the bar and saw Nick staring at Bri and smiled.  She looked at Bri.  Bri was looking around. 

      “Come on, I see Brian and Nick over by the bar,” Leighanne said.  She led Bri over to the guys. 

      “Hi babe,” Brian said kissing Leighanne.

      “Hey,” Leighanne said.

      “Hi Bri,” Brian said.

      “Hi Brian,” I said.

      “Hey Brian, let’s dance!” Leighanne said pulling him on the dance floor.  I looked at Nick.  He was staring at me.

      “Nick, is there something going on?” I asked.

      “I think so, Brian talked me into coming to the club, I’m not into clubs,” Nick said.   

      “Me either, Leighanne talked me into coming here, we’ve been setup, Nick,” I said.

      “I knew it,” Nick said.

      “Revenge?” I asked.

      “Oh yeah,” Nick said.

      “What do you have in mind?” I asked.

      “Let’s make them think their little plan worked, let’s dance,” Nick said.

      “I don’t dance,” I said.

A slow dance came on.  I smiled and we went on the dance floor.   Nick pulled me close. 

      “Let’s make them think it’s working too well,” Nick said.

He pulled me closer. 

Brian and Leighanne were dancing.  Brian kissed her softly.

      “Where are Nick and Bri?” Brian asked.

Leighanne looked around and saw Bri and Nick dancing and all over each other.  Brian saw them and they looked at each other. 

      “I guess it worked too well,” Brian said.

      “I guess so,” Leighanne said.  They looked again and didn’t see them.  They went to look for Nick and Bri and couldn’t find them.  They went back to the hotel.  Brian went to Nick’s room.  Leighanne went to Bri’s room.  She knocked on the door.  Bri opened the door.

      “Hi Leighanne,” I said.

      “What’s going on?” Leighanne asked.

      “What do you mean?” I asked.

      “What’s going on between you and Nick?” Leighanne asked.

      “We’re together,” I said grinning.

      “Oh really,” Leighanne said.

      “Yeah, really,” Nick said coming up behind me.  Brian came to the door and saw Nick.

      “You two know about the setup,” Leighanne said.

      “Yeah,” I said.

      “And you decided on revenge, you made us thought that it worked too well,” Leighanne said.

      “Revenge is sweet, don’t you think,” Nick said.

      “Look, the reason is that you both would make a great couple and thought you might need help,” Leighanne said.

      “Leighanne, I told you that I’m not ready for a relationship again,” I said.

      “Me either,” Nick said.

      “Okay, I’m sorry,” Leighanne said.  Everyone went back to their own rooms and went to bed. 

Three months later, the guys have become my best friends.  So have the girls.  Nick and I became best friends.  Nick and I hang out a lot when he’s not busy.  I was sitting in Nick’s room.  Nick was sitting beside me.  We were watching a movie.  There was a knock at the door.  Nick got up and opened it.  He saw Kevin standing there.

      “Hey, Kev,” Nick said.

      “Can I come in?” Kevin asked.

      “Sure,” Nick said.  Kevin came in.

      “Hi Kev,” I said.

      “Hey Bri,” Kevin said.

      “What’s up?” Nick asked.

      “Have you check your phone lately?” Kevin asked.

      “I forgot to turn it on, why?” Nick asked.

      “Your mother has been trying to call, she called me, Nick, you better sit down,” Kevin said.  Nick sat down next to me. 

      “What’s going on?” Nick asked.

      “Nick, your father was in a car accident, he died on the way to the hospital,” Kevin said. 

      “What, no,” Nick said.  He started crying.  I put my hand on his shoulder.  He shrugged it off.   I looked at Kevin.  He motioned me.  We went over to the door.

      “He needs to be alone for awhile,” Kevin said.

I went back over to Nick.

      “Nick,” I said.

      “Leave me alone,” Nick said crying.

      “I will, I’ll be in my room if you need anything,” I said.  Kevin and I went to our rooms.  I went to my room.  I laid down on my bed and cried.  I was crying because I knew how Nick felt.  I fell asleep crying.   The next morning, I got up and heard knocking on the door.  I went and opened the door and saw Brian.

      “Hey Brian,” I said.

      “Hey, I tried to talk to Nick but he refuses to talk to me,” Brian said.  I let him in.

      “I know, I was there when Kevin told him,” I said.

      “Kevin said he didn’t want any comfort,” Brian said.

      “I know how he feels, B,” I said.

      “What do you mean?” Brian asked sitting beside me.

      “My dad died two years ago in a car accident,” I said.

      “I’m sorry,” Brian said.

      “After he died, I didn’t want to see or talk to anyone, my mom tried to comfort me but I didn’t want her to, I didn’t talk to anyone, I didn’t see anyone, I hid in my room until I was ready to come out, I didn’t even go to his funeral, I couldn’t face that, I couldn’t face the fact that he was gone and never coming back,” I said crying. Brian held me close.

Two hours later, we were at the venue.  Kevin, Howie, AJ, Brian, Leighanne, Amanda, Kristen, and I were onstage, talking.

      “What’s going on, you guys talking about me?” Nick asked.

      “Nick, there you are, we were worried about you,” AJ said.

      “Don’t, my dad’s gone, okay, I don’t want to talk to anyone,” Nick said getting onstage.

      “Nick, you can talk to us, don’t shut us out,” I said.

      “Leave me alone, okay, just leave me alone!” Nick yelled.  I ran offstage and ran backstage.  Leighanne, Kristen, and Amanda ran after me.  Brian looked at Nick.

      “Nick, she just wants to help you get through this,” Brian said.

      “She doesn’t know how I feel! She doesn’t know that my world has just fallen apart!” Nick yelled crying.

      “Nick, she does know how it feels,” Brian said.

      “What,” Nick said.

      “Her dad died two years ago in a car accident, too, she knows what you’re going through,” Brian said.  Nick went backstage.  He found Bri in the dressing room.  Leighanne, Kristen, and Amanda were there with her.  He heard her crying.   He cleared his throat.

      “Leigh, Kris, Mandabear, can I talk to Bri alone?” Nick asked.

      “Sure,” they said getting up.  They left the room.  Nick closed the door.  Bri looked at him.

      “Bri, I’m sorry, Brian told me about your dad, I guess you know what I’m going through,” Nick said sitting beside her. 

      “I did the same thing, I didn’t want to talk to anyone or see anyone, I hid out in my room, not coming out to face everyone, I didn’t go to the funeral, I couldn’t face the fact that he was gone, Nick, don’t do what I did, go home, go to the funeral, don’t skip the funeral, you have to say goodbye,” I said.  Nick held my hand.

      “Come with me,” Nick said.

      “Okay,” I said. 

Chapter 3

Three days later, Nick and I went to Tampa.  Nick drove to a house.  He pulled into a driveway.  We got out and went up to the door.  He opened the door and we went in.

      “Anyone home?” Nick called.  A man, a woman, three girls and a boy came into the hallway.  I saw Nick’s face turn red.

      “What’s going on?” Nick asked.

      “Nick, we are so glad you’re home,” the woman said.

      “You lied to me, you lied to Kevin, how could you,” Nick said.

      “Nick, we only said that to get you to come home,” the woman said. 

      “What! Mom, I was on tour! You could’ve told me how you felt! I would’ve come to visit after the tour was over! You didn’t have to lie to me!” Nick yelled.

      “Nick, you guys are on tour for a year, we couldn’t wait that long,” the woman said.

      “Who are you?” the man said.

      “This is Britney, okay, I asked her to come with me because I thought you were dead and she knew what it like to lose a father, I wanted her support, Bri, this is my dad, Bob, my mom, Jane, my sisters, BJ, Leslie, and Angel, and my brother, Aaron,” Nick said.

      “Nick, calm down,” Jane said.

      “How could you do this to him,” I said.

      “Look, I know you are here to support him, but this is a family matter now,” Jane said.

      “Don’t talk to her like that! She’s the one who talked me into coming back, which was probably a big mistake, but I did come back, and for what, because you wanted me to come home to visit, I live on my own now, I have a busy life, there is a big tour going on, you had to lie to get me away from the tour! It’s hard! We are very busy and you wanted me to come home!” Nick said.

      “Nick, stop it!” Aaron said.

      “Aaron, stay out of this,” Nick said.

      “Don’t yell at your brother!” Jane said.

      “Don’t tell me what to do!” Nick said.

      “Get the hell out!” Bob yelled.

      “My pleasure, I’m never coming here again, this is the last time you will ever see me in this house, you can see me on TV and in magazines, but you will never see me in person again! Goodbye!” Nick yelled.  He grabbed my hand and we left. We went back to Europe.  We caught up with the tour.   We checked into the hotel and went to our rooms.  I knocked on Brian’s room.  He opened the door.  He saw the look on my face.

      “Hey, Bri, what’s wrong?” Brian said. I came in and we sat down and I told him and Leighanne the whole story.

      “I can’t believe they did that,” Brian said.

      “I know, he’s really mad at them,” I said.

      “I am, too,” Brian said.

Three months later, Nick and I were growing closer.  Nick never talked to his family again.  I was lying in my bunk on the tour bus.  I was thinking of what that day was.  It was the day my dad died.  I laid there, crying quietly.  Leighanne came into the bunk area.

      “Bri, what’s wrong?” Leighanne asked.

      “Today’s the three year anniversary of my father’s death,” I said.

      “Oh Bri, I’m sorry,” Leighanne said.  Nick came into the bunk area.  I wiped my tears away. 

      “Bri, were you crying?” Nick asked.

      “No, I wasn’t,” I said.

      “Yes, you were,” Nick said.

      “Okay, today the three year anniversary of my father’s death, okay,” I said.

      “Hey, it’s okay, you can cry, you don’t have to hide it,” Nick said.  I smiled a little.  Leighanne went back up front.

      “Let’s make this a happy day,” Nick said.  I got down off my bunk.  The bus lurched and swerved and I fell into Nick.  He held me to keep me from falling down. 

      “You okay?” Nick asked.

      “Yeah,” I said.  I looked up at him.  He was looking at me.  He leaned down and kissed my lips softly.  He pulled back and looked at me.  I pulled away and went up front.  I sat down by Leighanne.  She looked at me.

      “You okay?” Leighanne said.

      “I’m fine,” I said.

Three hours later, the bus pulled up in front of the hotel.  I went to my room and sat down.  I thought about what happened on the bus.  I liked that kiss.  But I knew that I wasn’t ready for the relationship.  There was a knock at the door.  I got up and opened the door and saw Leighanne, Amanda, and Kristen standing there.

      “Bri, we need to talk?” Leighanne asked.   They came in.

      “What’s up?” I asked as we all sat down.

      “What happened on the bus?” Kristen said.

      “Nothing happened,” I said.

      “Bri, come on, we’re your friends, you can talk to us,” Leighanne said.

      “Something happened between me and Nick,” I said.

      “What happened,” Amanda said.

      “Well, I got down from my bunk and the bus swerved and I fell into him and we stood there looking at each other and he leaned down and kissed me, I pulled away and went up front,” I said.

      “Bri, why did you do that?” Kristen asked.

      “I’m scared,” I said.

      “Scared, of what,” Amanda said.

      “Of getting hurt again, I can’t be with a guy like Nick, he has hundreds of girls throwing themselves at him, he could be with any of them, why would he want to be with me,” I said.

      “Bri, he really cares about you, he told Brian that,” Leighanne said.  I looked at my hands.

      “I can’t go through another relationship, I have to stay single, that way I know I won’t get hurt again, I don’t know what to do, can I fall in love again?” I said. Leighanne, Kristen, and Amanda looked at each other.  There was a knock at the door.  I got up and opened the door and saw Nick standing there.

      “We have to talk,” Nick said.

      “I can’t right now, I’m tired, maybe later, bye,” I said shutting the door.  Leighanne got up and opened the door and grabbed Nick’s arm and pulled him into the room.

      “You two are talking about this, okay, come on,” Leighanne said to Kristen and Amanda.  They left.  I went and sat down.  Nick sat down next to me.

      “Bri, what happened?” Nick asked.

      “Nothing,” I said.

      “Bri, why did you pull away?” Nick asked.

      “You wouldn’t understand,” I said. 

      “Bri,” Nick said.

      “Just go, okay, I need to sleep,” I said.  I ran into the bedroom and closed the door and locked it and collapsed on the bed and cried.  I fell asleep. 

Three hours later, I was backstage at the concert with Leighanne, Kristen, and Amanda.  The guys were talking.  Leighanne pulled me aside.

      “Did you two talk?” Leighanne asked.

      “No,” I said.

      “Bri,” Leighanne said.

      “Just leave me alone,” I said.  I went over and sat down.  AJ came over and sat down.

      “Hey girl, what’s wrong?” AJ asked.

      “Nothing, AJ, nothing’s wrong, I’m fine, I think Amanda needs you,” I said.  He went over to Amanda.  Howie came over and sat down. 

      “Hey, you okay,” Howie said.

      “I’m fine,” I said smiling.

      “Okay,” Howie said.  He got up and went back over to the guys.  Leighanne and Kristen came over. 

      “Bri, meet us at mine and Brian’s room after the concert,” Leighanne said.

      “Okay,” I said.

After the concert, I went to Leighanne and Brian’s room and used the key to get in.  I sat down and waited.  Twenty minutes later, the door opened and Nick was pushed in and the door closed and I heard it lock.  I got up and turned the knob and the door wouldn’t open.

      “Leighanne!” I called.

      “This door isn’t opening until you two talk about it!” Leighanne called back.  I banged on the door and sat down.  Nick sat down.

      “Bri, we need to talk about this,” Nick said.

      “You won’t understand,” I said.

      “You have to tell me in order for me to understand,” Nick said.

      “I’m scared, okay,” I said.

      “Scared of what, are you scared of me,” Nick said.

      “No,” I said.

      “Bri, I kissed you, I felt something, didn’t you,” Nick said.

      “Yes, I did, that’s what scared me,” I said.

      “I know you don’t want to get hurt again, I understand, but I want you to know that I will never hurt you, I’m falling for you, Bri, I can’t help it, I’m in love with you,” Nick said. 

      “I’m in love with you, too,” I said.  He wiped my tears away and looked into my eyes.

      “I will never hurt you, we will take it slow, okay, we will go slow,” Nick said.

      “Okay,” I said.  He kissed me softly.  He pulled back.  I looked at him and smiled.  He smiled and we kissed deeply.  We heard the door open.  We broke apart and looked and saw Brian and Leighanne standing at the door and smiling.

      “Well, what’s going on?” Leighanne asked.

      “Okay, we’re together, we are taking it slow,” Nick said.

Nick walked me to my room.  He kissed me softly.

      “Goodnight,” Nick said.

      “Night,” I said smiling.  I went in and leaned against the door and smiled and sighed.

Chapter 4

Three months later, there was three months left of the tour.  Nick and I were closer than ever.  Our relationship was getting stronger.  We are sharing a hotel room.  He came in and sat beside me. 

      “Hey, I have to ask you something,” Nick said.

      “Okay, ask away,” I said.

      “Bri, will you be my girlfriend?” Nick asked.

      “Yes, I will be your girlfriend, it’s about time,” I said.

      “I thought we said we’ll take it slow,” Nick said.

      “I didn’t mean wait three months to ask me to be your girlfriend,” I said.

      “Oh now you tell me,” Nick said.

      “Nick, calm down, I was just kidding, I’m glad you asked me now, it really helps me,” I said.

      “Oh, sorry,” Nick said.

      “Nick, I have something to tell you,” I said.

      “What is it?” Nick asked.

      “I love you,” I said. 

      “I love you, too,” Nick said.  We kissed deeply.  There was a knock at the door.  Nick got up and opened it and saw everyone.  They came in and we all sat and talked and relaxed.  The phone rang.  I picked it up.

      “Hello,” I said.

      “Ms. Hardin, do you have a friend named Amy Wells,” the front desk clerk asked.

      “Yes, I do, I’ll be down in a few,” I said. I hung up.

      “What’s up?” Nick asked.

      “Amy’s here,” I said getting up.  I went downstairs and saw Amy.  We hugged.

      “Hey, what’s up?” I asked.

      “I wanted to see you and meet everyone, I missed you, Bri,” Amy said.  I smiled.  We went up to mine and Nick’s room.  I went in.  She came in behind me.

      “Amy, meet the Backstreet Boys, guys, this is my best friend, Amy,” I said.

      “Hi Amy,” Nick, Howie, AJ, and Kevin said.  Brian remained silent.  He didn’t look at her.

      “Bri, can I talk to you?” Amy asked.  We went out into the hallway. 

      “What’s wrong with Brian?” Amy asked.

      “I don’t know,” I said.  We went inside.

      “Amy, this is Kristen, Kevin’s wife,” I said.

      “Hi Amy,” Kristen said.

      “And this is Amanda, AJ’s girlfriend,” I said.

      “Hi Amy,” Amanda said.

      “Hi, I’m Leighanne, and I know how you feel about me, how can you judge me when you don’t even know me,” Leighanne said.

      “You told her what I told you,” Amy said looking at me.

      “She told all of us, I am not using Brian, I love him, more than anything, okay, I support his career, I’m not going to break the guys up, all right, and I’m not a bitch, if anyone is a bitch around here, it’s you, you judged me when you didn’t even know me, tell me this, how would you know if I was using Brian or not, huh,” Leighanne said.

      “Look, I got this bad feeling in my stomach when I first heard that you and Brian started dating, I had a feeling that you were using him, I told Bri and she felt the same way,” Amy said.   Everyone looked at me. 

      “What, Bri, you didn’t like me either,” Leighanne said.

      “I didn’t until I met you, when I met you, I knew you weren’t like that,” I said.  Leighanne turned away. I glared at Amy.  Nick came over.

      “We’re through,” Nick said before walking out.  I looked at the guys.  Brian came over.

      “Bri, how do you feel now?” Brian said.

      “You guys are my best friends, I wouldn’t want that to change for anything, I know you and Leighanne love each other, I can see that, I know you two are in love and if anyone messed that up, I would hurt them,” I said.  Leighanne came back over and hugged me. 

      “You’re my best friend, Bri, I hope that won’t change,” Leighanne said.

      “It won’t,” I said. 

      “Bri,” Amy said. 

      “Get out, Amy!” I yelled. 

      “NO!” Amy yelled back.

      “Guys,” I said.  Howie, AJ, and Kevin grabbed her and carried her out. I followed.  She was yelling down the hallway. Nick watched.

      “Let me go!” Amy said.

      “Get out of this hotel and stay away from all of us, our friendship is over, Amy, okay, finished, I don’t want to see you, I don’t want to know you!” I said angrily. 

      “Bri, please,” Amy said.

I shook my head and walked back to Brian’s room. 

      “She’s gone, I hope, if she comes near you two, let me know, I can blackmail her,” I said.  They smiled.  Brian and Leighanne hugged me. 

      “You’re the bestest friend we could have,” Brian said. 

      “You guys are my best friends,” I said. 

      “Bri,” Nick said. I looked at him.  I walked over to him.  He hugged me.

      “I’m sorry,” Nick said.

      “It’s okay, I understand, are we okay?” I asked.

      “Yeah, come on,” Nick said grabbing my hand. I waved and we went back to our room.  He closed the door and we kissed. We went to bed holding each other. 

Chapter 5

Eight months later, the tour was over.  The guys and I returned to Orlando.  I went to stay with Nick.  I called my mother and told her the news. She told me to stay in Orlando and that she’ll be fine.  She said she would send my stuff down. I hung up and told Nick.  He was happy. 

Two months later, our relationship was stronger than ever. My stuff arrived and I had it all where I wanted it.   It was the day before Valentine’s Day.   Leighanne and I were out  shopping for gifts for Brian and Nick.

      “This is a special day, I don’t know what to get Nick,” I said.  Leighanne smiled.

      “I know exactly what to get Brian,” Leighanne said. 

      “Wait a minute, I know, can you and Brian keep Nick busy all day tomorrow, I’m going to redecorate the house, I can’t tell you what I’m going to do, I’ll tell you the day after, okay,” I said.

      “We’ll keep him busy,” Leighanne said.

      “Now, I need to get a few items, I’ll meet you at the food court in an hour, ‘kay,” I said.

      “See ya,” Leighanne said.  She walked off.  I went into Victoria’s Secret and got a silk robe and a silk lingerie.  I went to the flower shop and got some rose petals.  I went to the candle shop and got some candles.  I got a paper bag and put the bags into one whole bag so Leighanne can’t tell what I got.  I know the perfect present.  I was going to give him myself.  I smiled at the thought. I met Leighanne at the food court. 

      “Hey, girl, what did you get?” Leighanne asked.

      “A few things, no biggie,” I said.  We walked into the jewelry store.  I got a present for Nick.  A man’s gold neck chain with a inscription, Bri+NickForever.  Leighanne got one for Brian. We went to mine and Nick’s house.  Brian and Nick were playing Nintendo.

      “Hey girls, what did you get?” Brian asked.

      “Oh, nothing, just a few things, no biggie,” Leighanne said.  I went up to the spare bedroom and hid the bag.  I came back downstairs and Nick pulled me close.

      “What did you get me?” Nick asked.

      “You will find out tomorrow,” I said.  He gave me the puppy dog look.

      “Uh-oh,” Brian said.

      “The puppy dog look isn’t going to work this time,” I said. 

      “Oh man!” Nick said.

The next morning, I woke up and saw Nick still asleep.  I smiled and got up and went to the spare bedroom and got out the neck chain and went back. I wrote a note and put it on my pillow and I went into the bathroom and changed into my jogging suit and put on my jogging shoes.  I went jogging.

Nick woke up and saw Bri gone.  He saw a jeweler’s box and a note on her pillow.  He opened the note.  Hey babe, I got this for you! Love you lots, Bri.  He smiled and opened the box and saw a gold neck chain.  He saw an inscription.  It said Bri+NickForever.  He smiled and took it out and put it on. He got up and got dressed and went downstairs and couldn’t find Bri anywhere.  He sat down on the couch.  The front door opened and closed and Bri came in all sweaty and tired. She sat down next to him.

      “Morning,” I said kissing his cheek.  He pulled me close and kissed me deeply and passionately.  He pulled back and reached under his shirt and I saw the chain.  I smiled.

      “I love this, and I love you,” Nick said.

      “I love you, too,” I said. The doorbell rang.  I got up and opened it and saw Brian and Leighanne.  I smiled.

      “Where is he?” Brian asked.

      “In the living room,” I said.  Brian and Leighanne went in and grabbed Nick.

      “What’s going on?” Nick asked.

      “You are spending the day with us, we already okayed it with Bri, come on,” Brian said practically dragging him to the door.

      “Can I say bye to Bri first?” Nick asked.

      “Okay,” Leighanne said.  He came over to me and we kissed tenderly.

      “I’ll see you later,” Nick said.

      “Yeah, you will,” I said.  Nick and Brian went out the door.  Leighanne came over to me.

      “What time?” Leighanne asked.

      “I’ll beep you, do you have your pager?” I asked.

      “Yeah, beep me when you’re ready,” Leighanne said.  She went out the door.  I closed the door and locked it up. I locked and shut all the windows and every door.  I ran upstairs and got into the shower and I got out and got dressed and went into the spare bedroom and got everything out. I took the rose petals into our bedroom and put a lot on the bed.  I made a trail from the bed into the hallway down the stairs and to the front door.  I went back up and put candles all over our bedroom.  I laid out the robe and lingerie.  I smiled.  I made sure I got green since it was his favorite color.  I went downstairs and sat down.

That evening, I knew I was ready.  I beeped Leighanne with the message to drop Nick off.  I ran upstairs and changed into the lingerie and robe.  I lit the candles.  I ran downstairs and unlocked the door.  I ran back upstairs.  I heard a car door shut.  I heard the car drive off.  Then I heard the front door open and close.  I heard his footsteps coming up the stairs.  I ran into the bathroom and shut the door quietly.  I heard his footsteps come into the bedroom.  I heard them stop.  I heard him mumbling something.

      “Bri, baby, where are you?” Nick asked.

      “I’m in the bathroom, I’ll be out in just a sec,” I said.  I looked at myself in the mirror one more time and opened the door and step out.  He saw me in my silk robe and his eyes widened.

      “Bri,” he choked.  I smiled.  I went over to him.

      “Happy Valentine’s Day,” I said running my hands down his chest.  I closed the bedroom door and locked it.  I walked back over to him.  He pulled me close and wrapped his arms around my waist.

      “What do you have planned?” Nick asked.

      “Something special, for the both of us, I had two Valentine’s gifts for you, you already got one, the other one is happening tonight,” I said.

      “What is the gift?” Nick asked.

      “I’m giving myself to you, Nick, I want you, I want you to make love to me, I want to lose my virginity and I want to lose it to you, I want you inside me, deep inside where no one has ever touched me,” I said.   He looked into my eyes. He cupped my face in his hands and kissed me deeply.  Our tongues met in a passionate duel.  He untied the ties on the robe.  He looked at me.

      “You know silk turns me on, big time,” Nick said. 

      “I know,” I said.  He opened the robe and saw the silk lingerie.  He smiled.  The robe slid off my arms and onto the floor.  His hands slid up my arms to my shoulders.  He turned me around and moved my hair and kissed my neck and my shoulders.  His arms wrapped around my waist pressing me closer to him.  My head fell back against him.   He slipped one strap of the lingerie off my shoulders. He slid the other one off.  The lingerie slid down my body and landed on the floor.  He turned me around and looked at my body and smiled.  He kissed my neck. I started unbuttoning his shirt.  I slid it off.  I unbuttoned his jeans. The doorbell rang.  We groaned.  Nick rebuttoned his jeans and kissed my forehead.

      “I’ll make them go away,” Nick said.  I nodded.  He went out of the room.   He went downstairs and opened the door and saw a girl.  She started shrieking.

      “Can I help you?” Nick asked.

      “I’m a huge fan, can I have your autograph?” she asked.

Nick signed her cd and poster.  He hugged her.  She left. He closed the door and locked up and went back upstairs. He saw Bri sitting on the bed in her robe.  She stood up when he came into the room.  He closed the door and locked it and he went over to her.

      “Who was it?” I asked.

      “A fan, I gave her an autograph and a hug and she left,” Nick said pulling me close.  I smiled.  He untied the robe and it slid off.  I unbuttoned his jeans and they slid to the floor.  He stood there in his boxers. He kissed my neck.  He picked me up and laid me on the bed.  He laid on top of me and we kissed deeply.  He pulled back.  He kissed my neck and trailed down to my chest to my breasts.  He took one nipple in his mouth and sucked on it.  I moaned in pleasure.  My hands ran up his back into his hair and splayed in his hair.  His kisses moved down to my stomach and my abdomen.  He pushed my legs apart.  He slipped two fingers inside me.  I moaned.  He replaced his fingers with his tongue. 

      “Oh god,” I moaned. 

      “Relax, baby, just go with it,” he said. He continued making love to me with his tongue until I came into his mouth.  He swallowed every drop.  He moved back up.

      “You taste good, baby,” Nick said.  He kissed me deeply and I tasted myself.  He laid between my legs.  He pulled his boxers off.  He cupped my face in his hands.  He kissed my lips softly.

      “This is going to hurt, baby, I wish it didn’t, I don’t want you to hurt, but if you want me to stop, just tell me, the pain will turn to pleasure, if it hurts too much, tell me and I’ll stop, okay,” Nick said.  I nodded. 

      “Wait, what about protection?” I asked.  He reached over to his wallet and got out a silver package. He put his wallet back.  He opened the package and I helped him slide the condom onto his body. He looked at me.

      “Are you ready?” Nick asked. 

      “Yes,” I said.

      “If you want me to stop, I will, all you have to do is tell me, okay,” Nick said.  I nodded. He kissed me deeply and passionately.  I felt him start to enter me.  I felt pain and felt tears in my eyes.  He entered me all the way and stopped when he saw my tears.  He reached up and brushed them away with his thumbs. 

      “I’m sorry, baby,” Nick said. 

      “It’s okay, please don’t move,” I said.

      “I won’t, tell me when the pain’s gone,” Nick said.  He remained still.  The phone rang.  I reached over and answered it.

      “Hello,” I said.

      “Bri, it’s Mom, you okay, you sound upset,” Mom said.

      “Hi Mom, I’m fine, we’re just watching a sad and romantic movie, that’s all,” I said.

      “I wanted to call and wish you a Happy Valentine’s Day,” Mom said.

      “Oh, Happy Valentine’s Day to you, too, Mom, I have to go, is that all?” I asked.

      “Yeah, I’ll let you go, okay, love you,” Mom said.

      “You, too, bye,” I said.  I hung up and looked at Nick.

      “You okay?” Nick asked.

      “Yeah, the pain’s gone, make love to me, Nick,” I said.  He slowly pulled out taking my virginity. He entered me again and pulled out. Our hips moved together.  He thrusted into me. He pulled out and slammed back in.  He plunged into me and pulled out.  I felt my climax coming.  Nick felt it and felt his coming.  With one final thrust, he came fast and hard, burying himself deep inside me.  He pulled out and laid on the bed beside me and pulled me close.  I rested my head on his chest.

      “Oh my god, Bri,” Nick said.

      “I know, Happy Valentine’s Day, babe,” I said.

      “Happy Valentine’s Day, here’s your present,” Nick said. He handed me a jewelry box.  I opened it and saw a necklace with the inscription  Nick+BriForever.  I looked at him.  He was gazing at me.  I leaned over and kissed his lips softly.

      “I love it, we match,” I said.  He nodded and I rested my head on his chest.

      “I want to say that this is the best Valentine’s Day ever,” Nick said.

      “Yes, it is,” I said.  He put the necklace in the jewelry box and put it on the nightstand and held me close.  We fell asleep holding each other.  The next morning, I woke up and saw him still asleep.  I got up and got dressed and went downstairs.  I cleaned up the rose petals and put them back in the bag.  I cleaned all the way to the bedroom door.  I cleaned up all the rose petals.  Nick woke up and saw me on my knees picking up the petals. 

      “Hey beautiful,” Nick said.

      “Hey, I thought I would get a head start on cleaning,” I said.  He got up and got his boxers on.  He knelt down in front of me and lifted my chin with his finger. I looked at him and smiled.  He kissed my lips softly.

      “I love you,” Nick said.

      “I love you, too,” I said.  He got dressed and went downstairs.  I put all the rose petals in the bag.  I put the bag in the closet on the shelf.  I gathered all the candles.  I put all the candles away and went downstairs. The phone rang.  Nick grabbed it.

      “Hello, hey Kev, what’s up, what, no, I’m not going, no way, I want to stay here with Bri, Kev, come on, can they postpone it, oh man, okay, talk to you later, bye,” Nick said.

      “What’s going on?” I asked.

      “I’m going on tour, we leave tomorrow, Kevin’s pissed because it’s short notice,” Nick said.

      “How long is the tour?” I asked.

      “Nine months,” Nick said.  I ran upstairs.  He ran after me.  He caught me and held me from behind.

      “Let me go!” I said crying.

      “Baby, no, I don’t want to leave but I have to, I wish you could come with me, but they won’t let you,” Nick said.

      “I don’t want you to go,” I said crying.

      “I don’t want to either, baby, I don’t want to leave you, but it’s my job, I have to,” Nick said.  The doorbell rang.  I went and opened the door and saw Brian and Leighanne.

      “Nick told you,” Leighanne said.

      “Yeah,” I said wiping my tears away. We hugged.

      “I’m just as upset as you are, Bri,” Leighanne said.

      “I have to talk to you,” I said. I pulled her out back and we sat down by the pool.  I told Leighanne all about last night.  Leighanne smiled.

      “That’s why you want me and Brian to keep Nick away, you were getting ready for it,” Leighanne said. 

      “Yeah, now he’s leaving,” I said. 

      “I know, management are idiots,” Leighanne said.

      “I know,” I said.  We talked about the guys.

Chapter 6

That night, Nick was all packed and ready to go.  We were sitting on the couch.  He grinned and picked me up.  He carried me up to our bedroom and laid down on the bed.  He pulled me down on top of him. We kissed deeply.  I pulled off his shirt.  He pulled my shirt off and unclipped my bra and pulled it off and threw it on the floor. His hands came up and cupped my breasts.  We got up.  He unbuttoned my jeans and slid them down.  He tossed them across the room.  He slid my panties off and tossed them aside.  He guided me to the bed and sat me down on the edge of the bed.  He knelt down on the floor and pushed my legs apart.  He slipped two fingers inside me.  I moaned.  He smiled and pulled them out.  He licked my hidden folds. I moaned.  He thrusted his tongue inside me.  I felt an orgasm flow through my body.  I came into his mouth and he swallowed every single drop.  He stood up and I stood up and unbuttoned his jeans. I pushed them off along with his boxers.  I knelt down and took him into my mouth.  He moaned in pleasure.  I sucked, caressed, and bit his erection.  He shot his hot load into my mouth.  I swallowed every drop.  I let him go and stood up.  He kissed me deeply.  He tasted himself as his tongue roamed my mouth.  Our tongues met in a passionate duel.  He moved towards the bed and we laid down kissing.  He spread my legs with his knee and laid between them.  He kissed my lips and then my neck.  His kiss trailed down to my chest to my breasts and he took one into his mouth and sucked on the nipple.  I moaned in pleasure. He moved back up and kissed my lips again.  He entered me with one hard thrust.  Our hips moved together.  He was going fast.

      “Oh god, Nick, harder, faster,” I moaned.  He put my legs over his shoulders and plunged into me.  He went faster and harder. I screamed his name.  He pulled out and slammed back into me.  He went faster and harder.  I contracted around him.  With one final thrust, he came fast and hard, spilling his seed deep inside me.  He let my legs slip from his shoulders.  He laid on top of me and we kissed.  He pulled back and looked at me and smoothed my damp hair back from my face.  He kissed my lips softly.

      “You’re so beautiful, how am I so lucky,” Nick said.

      “We’re both lucky,” I said.  He smiled and kissed my lips again.  He moved his lips to my neck and devoured it.  My hands ran up and down his back.  He slid off of me and pulled me close. 

      “Oh Bri, I’ll miss you so much,” Nick said kissing my forehead.

      “I’ll miss you, too,” I said resting my head on his chest.  We fell asleep holding each other.

The next day, I woke up and he was gone.  I saw a note. I read it.  Hey beautiful, you looked so peaceful that I didn’t want to wake you up.  I had to get going early this morning, I love you, baby, so much, I’ll call when we get there, I miss you already, even though I’m writing this as I’m looking at you while you slept.  I love you.  Nick.  I laid back and felt tears in my eyes. I went back to sleep. 

Three weeks later, I was sitting in the living room with Leighanne. We were watching TV.  The news was on.

      “We have news on the Backstreet Boys, one Backstreet Boy was stranded in LA last night and couldn’t make it to the Denver concert last night, the other four had to perform without him, we don’t know which Backstreet Boy, though,” the news reporter said.  I turned off the TV.

      “Wow, I wonder which one was stranded,” Leighanne said. I picked up the phone and dialed Nick’s cell phone.

      “Hello,” Nick said sounding angry. 

      “Nick, it’s Bri, what’s going on?” I asked.

      “Hey, girl, did you see the news?” Nick asked.

      “Yeah, me and Leighanne saw it, who missed the concert,” I said.

      “Me, I got stranded in LA, I went to see my family and couldn’t get a flight to Denver, I missed the concert!” Nick said.  I looked at Leighanne.  I pointed at the phone. She started laughing.

      “What’s Leighanne laughing about?” Nick asked.

      “You!” Leighanne said laughing.  I hit her shoulder. 

      “Stop it, Leigh, anyway, where are you now?” I asked. 

      “I caught up with the tour, and I’m not living it down, everyone is upset and angry with me, no one wants to hang with me now,” Nick said.

      “Not even Brian,” I said.

      “Nope, I’m all alone,” Nick said.

      “I’m sorry, if I was there with you, you wouldn’t be alone,” I said. 

      “I know, I wish you were here, too, I love you,” Nick said.

      “I love you, too, I better let you go,” I said.

      “I’ll call tomorrow, okay,” Nick said.

      “Okay, bye,” I said.

      “Bye,” Nick said.  I hung up and looked at Leighanne.  We talked about the guys.

Three months later, Leighanne and I were on our way to the tour to surprise the guys.  We called and told Howie.  He promised not to say anything to Nick and Brian.  We arrived in Dallas.  We went to the hotel.  Howie met us in the lobby.

      “Hey you two, Brian and Nick are in their rooms,” Howie said.  We smiled. 

That evening, Leighanne was in Brian’s dressing room.  I was sitting in Nick’s dressing room.  I heard voices.

      “Yeah, I’ll be ready in a few, D,” I heard Nick say.

      “Take your time, Nick,” I heard Howie say.

      “Fine, okay,” I heard Nick say.  The door opened and Nick came in and closed the door.  He hasn’t seen me.  I got up and quietly snuck up behind him and covered his eyes.

      “Who’s there?” Nick asked.

      “You have to guess,” I said in a disguised voice.

      “I’m not good at guessing games,” Nick said.  I smiled and I kissed the back of his neck.

      “Are you coming onto me, whoever you are, I have a girlfriend, whom I love more than anything,” Nick said.

      “I know, I know your girlfriend,” I said in the voice.

      “You do, how is she?” Nick said.

      “Maybe you should find out,” I said in the voice.

      “Can I have my phone?” Nick said.

      “You don’t need it,” I said in the voice.

      “Okay, I’ve had enough of this,” Nick said.

      “Leighanne!” I heard Brian shriek through the wall. 

      “Hey, Leighanne’s here, that means, hey girl,” Nick said.

      “Hey, yourself,” I said. I dropped my hands and he turned and took me into his arms. I hugged him tight.

      “I missed you so much,” Nick said.

      “I missed you, too, I had to come see you, me and Leighanne decided to come see you and Brian, we called Howie and told him and he met us at the hotel,” I said. 

      “D knew, figures,” Nick said.

      “Are you going to kiss me or what,” I said.  He kissed my lips softly. Then he kissed my neck.  His hands went up my shirt. I pulled back.

      “Nick, not here,” I said. 

      “I want you so bad,” Nick said.

      “Wait until after the show, okay, you don’t have time, after the show, we will go back to the hotel and make love all night,” I said. He smiled and we kissed deeply and passionately.

Chapter 7

That night, after the show, we all went to the hotel.  Nick and I went to his room.  I locked the door. 

      “Five more months, then I’ll be home,” Nick said.

We sat down on the couch.  He pulled me into his lap. I straddled his lap.  His hands were on my hips.   We kissed deeply and passionately.  I pulled back and looked at Nick.

      “What’s wrong?” Nick asked.

      “What are you thinking?” I asked.

      “Making love,” Nick said.  He began kissing my neck.  I knew he was seducing me. Nick pulled my mouth to his again in a hungry kiss.  He nibbled on my neck and throat eliciting a moan from me.

“I want you baby.”  He whispered in my ear.  His hand went to my breast and caressed it as he held my body to him with his other hand.  He could feel me weakening to his attentions and it spurred him on.  He knew the power he had over me and he was prepared to use it.

“You’re not playing fair.” I mumbled as Nick continued his attack on my senses. 

“I know.” Nick said before his lips captured mine again, thrusting his tongue into my mouth and I finally responded in kind.   He moaned into my mouth as our tongues dueled, teased, tasted, trying our best to drive each other crazy.  Nick broke the kiss and spoke into my neck as he nibbled on my earlobe.

“I want you too much to play fair.”  He took my hand and placed in on his erection. 

“Please, I need you so badly right now.” With his hand on my throat, he used his thumb pushing my chin, tilting my head so he could caress my throat with tender lips. As soon as Nick caressed my tender spot on my throat with his tongue and tender lips, I was all his.  I was so far gone, he could have carried me outside and taken me in the hallway for all I cared.  His lips and hands felt so good all I wanted was for him to keep doing what he was doing.  I knew he was seducing me so I would give in and make love, and I really didn’t care anymore.  All I cared about was how this wonderful blond God was making me feel.  His lips traveled back to my ear and he whispered his love for me and what he wanted to do to me….. for me….. with me.   His kisses were greedy and his hands seemed to be everywhere. My soft moaning made him want me even more.  I was breathing faster and clutching at him, letting him know he had finally gotten to me. 

“I want to be cocooned inside you where heaven is Baby.  I want to love you and be loved by you.” He whispered in my ear.   I put my hands on his shoulders and pushed him back. Our eyes locked in an unspoken conversation.  Finally, I stood up and pulled my clothes off, throwing them behind me.   I pulled off his shirt. I bent over and put my hands on Nick’s shorts. He smiled and raised his bottom off the couch and I pulled them off him, leaving Nick sitting on the couch naked with his length at full attention.  I took in the grandeur of his body and the part of him that cried out for attention. 

“Do you hurt at all?” I asked him.  Nick held his length in his hand. 

“This is the only part of me that hurts and it hurts because it needs to be buried deep inside you.” I got back on his lap in the same position that I had just left.

“I love you,” I said before I captured his lips.   As we continued to kiss, Nick pulled my hips as close as he could get them and rocked his hips so his length rubbed against my wetness, massaging my nubbin, finally sending me to that place where I would only find contentment if Nick was buried deep within me.  I could take no more. I rose to my knees kissing Nick hard. 

“Now Nicky.” He guided me down onto his length, dragging soft moans from both of us as he filled me. Nick pulled my mouth to his in a ravenous kiss that lasted and lasted as I began to move on him with his hands guiding my hips showing me just what he wanted.  He pulled me closer and held me tighter as I wrapped my arms around his head and neck, cradling his head to me. There was very little room to move, but it didn’t seem to bother us.  As long as we were together, in each other’s arms, connected and our bodies pressed together as close as we could be, we were content. Soon, our passion intensified into an urgency that took control.  Our hands touched, caressed, clawed and clutched at each other.  My soft moans as he pleasured me drove him even further to the point of desperately needing to find release. 

“I love you Bri.” He whispered into my neck as he devoured it.  “I didn’t think it was possible to love someone this much. But, my God, I do love you.”  Hearing the need in Nick’s voice, my eyes welled up.  I held him even tighter as I took him deep within me with stronger and more forceful movements.  When Nick’s hands went to my hips pulling them down even harder as he began to thrust up so hard, his bottom came off the couch then crashed back down only to thrust up again, I was hit by an orgasm so intense I actually felt dizzy. 

“Ohhhhooo.” Feeling my walls stroke him with vice like strength, Nick lost all control, growling as he thrust up one final time, finding his release with wave after wave of his seed spurting deep within me, as he whimpered. He clutched me so tightly; he lost himself in me, as tears filled his eyes from the intensity of his emotions. 

“God Nick. That was......” I said.

“I know. Pretty incredible.” We held each other, rocking gently, soothing each other, loving each other.  Both with our head on the other’s shoulders. 

“I love you Nicky.”  I whispered into Nick’s neck. 

“I love you.”  Nick pulled back and looked at me with teary eyes.  He cupped my face and gently kissed me, then pulled me to him again.  We laid down on the couch and went to sleep.  The next morning, I woke up and saw that I was lying on Nick.  I got up gently and got dressed.  Nick woke up and sat up.

“Hey, what’s going on?” Nick asked.

“Leighanne and I have a flight out today, we only came for one night, to see you two and spend the night, I wish we could stay longer,” I said.   He got up and came over to me and hugged me.

      “I’ll miss you so much,” Nick said.

      “I’ll miss you, too, call me every day and night, okay, I want to hear your voice every day and night,” I said.

      “I will, I love you,” Nick said.

      “I love you, too,” I said.  We kissed deeply for a long time. There was a knock at the door.  Nick grabbed his clothes and ran into the bedroom and closed the door.  I opened the room door and saw Donna.

      “Hi Bri, didn’t expect to see you,” Donna said.

      “Yeah, Leighanne and I came to see Nick and Brian, just for one night, we are leaving today, we just came to spend the night,” I said.

      “Okay, Bri, that’s okay, if you and Leighanne want to visit again, you can, just not the whole tour, security reasons, you know, that’s why you, Leighanne, Kristen, and Amanda couldn’t come, so you guys can be safe,” Donna said.  I smiled.

      “And we understand, Donna,” I said. She hugged me.

      “I just want you to know that I don’t hate you girls, you girls are the best things that came into the boys’ lives, besides music,” Donna said.

      “We know,” I said.  Nick came out.

      “Hey Nick, you guys have a radio interview in a couple hours, and then practice, then the show tonight,” Donna said.

      “Okay, thanks, Donna,” Nick said. 

      “Have a safe trip back, Bri,” Donna said.

      “Thanks,” I said.  She hugged me and went on.  I closed the door.  Nick pulled me close.  I smiled.  He kissed me deeply and passionately.  There was a knock at the door.  Nick opened the door and saw Brian and Leighanne.

      “Hey, Nick,” Leighanne said.  They hugged.  Brian hugged me. 

      “Hey Bri,” Brian said.

      “Bri, we better get going,” Leighanne said.

      “Okay,” I said.  Nick hugged me. 

      “I love you,” Nick said.

      “I love you, too, I’ll call later tonight,” I said. 

      “I’ll keep my phone on vibrate,” Nick said.  I kissed him softly and hugged him again. Leighanne and Brian hugged.  We left and went to the airport.  We got on the plane back to Orlando.  We went to mine and Nick’s house and sat down and talked about the guys.

Chapter 8

Two months later, Leighanne, Kristen, Amanda, and I went to Missouri to visit my mother.  I drove to the house.  We got out and walked up to the door.  I walked in and saw my mother, with two guys. 

      “Bri!” Mom said coming over and hugging me.

      “Hi Mom,” I said.  I looked at the guys.  I recognized one.  He got up and came over. 

      “Oh my god, Derek,” I said.

      “Hey, Bri, how have you’ve been,” Derek said hugging me.

      “I’ve been great, how about you,” I said.

      “Great,” Derek said.

      “Hi Tom,” I said. 

      “Hi Britney, how are you,” Tom said.

      “Fine,” I said. 

      “So, who are your friends?” Mom asked.

      “Oh, this is Leighanne Littrell, Kristen Richardson, and Amanda Latona, they are my best friends from Orlando, they came with me up here, is that okay, Mom?” I asked.

      “That’s fine, honey, I have some news, Tom and I are engaged to be married, he and Derek moved in here,” Mom said. 

      “That’s great, Mom, I’m so happy for you,” I said hugging her.  She hugged me back.

      “I know I’m suppose to have your aunt Alice as my maid of honor, but not this time, I want you to be my maid of honor,” Mom said.

      “I will, Mom,” I said hugging me.

      “Derek will be your stepbrother,” Tom said.

      “Cool!” I said.  We all sat down and talked.

      “So the wedding is in September, we already sent out invitations, to certain people, Leighanne, Kristen, and Amanda, you three can attend as well, in fact, Leighanne, will you be a bridesmaid?” Mom asked.

      “I will be honored, Sue,” Leighanne said.

      “Bri, where are the guys?” Mom asked.

      “On tour, for nine months, they will be back in three months, just in time for the wedding,” I said.

      “They can come, too, in fact, can they sing at the wedding,” Mom said.

      “I’ll ask them,” I said.  My cell phone rang. 

      “Hello,” I said.

      “Hey, girl, where are you?” Nick asked.

      “In Missouri, visiting my mother, she has some great news, she’s engaged,” I said.

      “She’s getting married?” Nick asked.

      “Yeah, and I’m going to be her maid of honor, and Leighanne is going to be a bridesmaid, she invited Amanda and Kristen to attend, and you guys, too,” I said.

      “But when is the wedding?” Nick asked.

      “In September, you guys will be back by then, my mother wants you guys to sing at the wedding,” I said.

      “Tell her we’ll do it,” Nick said.

      “Okay, hey, I miss you,” I said. 

      “I miss you, too, I love you,” Nick said.

      “Yeah, me, too, bye,” I said.

      “Bye, baby,” Nick said.  I hung up.

      “Well?” Mom asked.

      “They’ll do it,” I said.

Three months later, it was my mother’s wedding day. The guys arrived.  I was too busy that I haven’t had the chance to see Nick.  I was helping my mother. 

      “Bri, Nick’s here,” Kristen said coming in.

      “Okay, thanks,” I said.

      “He’s looking for you,” Kristen said.

      “I’ll see him later,” I said.

      “Bri, go to your man, I’m not going anywhere,” Mom said. I smiled and went out and saw the guys in their suits.  I smiled.  Brian and AJ saw me and whistled. Nick turned and saw me and ran to me.  We hugged. 

      “I missed you so much,” Nick said.

      “I missed you, too, you look hot in this suit,” I said looking him up and down.

      “You look beautiful,” Nick said. I smiled and we kissed. I pulled back and saw he had lipstick on his lips.  I got out a tissue. He gave me a strange look.

      “I’m wearing makeup, you have lipstick on your lips,” I said wiping his lips with the tissue.  I hugged him.

      “Hey Bri,” Derek said coming up to us. 

      “Oh Nick, this is Derek, he’s my soon to be stepbrother, Derek, this is my boyfriend, Nick Carter,” I said.

      “Hi,” Nick said.

      “And this is Brian Littrell, Kevin Richardson, Howie Dorough, and AJ McLean,” I said.  They all shook hands.

      “So, you guys are the Backstreet Boys, what songs are you going to sing?” Derek asked.  The guys looked at me. 

      “What,” I said.

      “What are we going to sing?” Brian asked.

      “I’ll be right back,” I said. I went to the brides’ room.

      “Mom, what song are the guys going to sing?” I asked.

      “They can pick, it doesn’t matter, as long as it’s a slow, romantic song,” Mom said. I went back out.

      “Okay, my mother said that you guys can pick the song, as long as it’s slow and romantic,” I said. 

      “How about Show Me The Meaning Of Being Lonely,” Brian said.   The guys nodded.  Kristen came out.

      “Bri, can you sing?” Kristen asked.

      “I wish, I heard myself sing and it was bad,” I said.

      “Bri, that’s not what your mother thinks,” Kristen said.

      “Then she must need a hearing aid because I sing terrible,” I said. 

      “Let’s hear you,” AJ said.

      “No, I can’t,” I said.

      “Come on, baby, for me,” Nick said with his puppy dog look.  I rolled my eyes. 

      “Fine, but you guys will regret it,” I said.  We went into a room and Brian closed the door.  Kevin put a tape in the tape deck.

      “The song you will sing is I Wanna Love You Forever by Jessica Simpson,” Kevin said. The music started. I bit my lower lip.  I looked at Nick. 

      “You can do it,” Nick said.  I started singing the song.  I closed my eyes and sang. After the song was over, I opened my eyes and saw shocked looks on their faces.  They all looked at each other.

      “I told you I was bad!” I said.  I headed for the door.  Nick grabbed me and turned me to face him.

      “No, baby, you were awesome, you sang that song like Jessica does, you hit the high notes just right, you were awesome, you can do this!” Nick said.  I looked at the guys.

      “I’m good, I’m really good,” I said.

      “Yes, Bri, you can have your own music career, you were awesome,” AJ said.

      “What he said,” Kevin, Howie, and Brian said.

      “You and I are singing Where You Are by Jessica and Nick Lachey, after we sing Show Me The Meaning Of Being Lonely,” Nick said.  I smiled and hugged him. 

An hour later, the ceremony was going and it was time for the guys to sing.  Brian, Nick, Howie, AJ, and Kevin stood in front of everyone.  They sang Show Me The Meaning Of Being Lonely.  My mother whispered to me.  I nodded.  After the song was over, I went over to Brian and whispered in his ear.  He nodded and whispered to the guys.  They performed Shape Of My Heart.  After that song was over, I went over to Nick.  Brian, Howie, AJ, and Kevin sat down.  Nick and I sang Where You Are.  After we were done, everyone clapped.  Nick hugged me.  Nick went to sit down.  I went back over and stood next to Leighanne.  My mother smiled over at me.  I smiled back at her.  Mom and Tom were pronounced husband and wife and they kissed. 

      “May I present Mr. and Mrs. Thomas Huey,” the minister said.  Everyone clapped as Mom and Tom walked up the aisle. Derek came over to me.  We walked up together.  Everyone went to the reception.  I was talking with Leighanne and Kristen.  I saw my ex-boyfriend, Adam, come in.  Leighanne saw my face. 

      “Bri,” Leighanne said.

      “He’s here,” I said.

      “Who?” Leighanne asked.

      “My ex-boyfriend, I forgot that he’s Derek’s best friend,” I said.  Derek came over.

      “Bri, I’m sorry for inviting Adam,” Derek said.

      “You know what he did to me, Derek, why,” I said.

      “I wasn’t thinking, actually my father invited him, I’ll go tell him to leave,” Derek said.

      “Derek, wait, let me,” Leighanne said.  Derek looked at me and I nodded.  Leighanne went over to Adam. I followed with Amanda, Kristen, and Derek behind me. Nick and Brian saw us and came over and stood there.

      “Hi,” Leighanne said.

      “Hi there, I’m Adam,” Adam said.

      “I know, I’ve heard about you,” Leighanne said.

      “Really,” Adam said.

      “Yeah, from my best friend,” Leighanne said.

      “Who’s your best friend?” Adam asked.  I came up beside her.  His eyes widened.

      “I’m her best friend, and what are you doing here?” I asked.

      “I was invited by Derek’s father,” Adam said.

      “Adam, man, why don’t you split,” Derek said.

      “Derek, I thought we were best friends,” Adam said.

      “We were until you hurt Bri, she’s my stepsister now, and I’m not going to let you hurt her anymore than you already have,” Derek said.  Adam looked at me. I was glaring at him. I looked at Leighanne.

      “Listen, you, you hurt her really bad, when she came to Orlando, she didn’t want anything to do with any guy, she was scared to get into another relationship because she was afraid of getting hurt again,” Leighanne said. By now everyone stopped talking and watched us. 

      “I’m sorry, I didn’t mean to hurt you, Bri,” Adam said.

      “Well, you did,” I said.

      “What did you think was going to happen, you cheat on her and expect her to be okay about it, you broke her heart, she didn’t want to get into another relationship, but she did,” Leighanne said.

      “She did?” Adam asked.

      “Yes, she’s dating my husband’s best friend, and they really love each other, I know he won’t hurt her because he’s my best friend, too, he hasn’t hurt anyone, girls hurt him, before he and Bri got together, before they even met, he was dumped by his girlfriend, he was hurting too, but they got together and they are very happy together,” Leighanne said.

      “So, where is he?” Adam asked.

      “Right here,” Nick said coming up to me. Nick wrapped an arm around my shoulders.  I wrapped an arm around his waist. We looked at Adam.

      “Just get out of here, you don’t belong here,” Derek said.

      “I didn’t come to cause trouble, I just came because I was invited, okay,” Adam said. 

      “Just stay away from Bri, wherever she is, don’t go near her or you will have to deal with me,” Nick said.

      “Fine,” Adam said.  He wandered into the crowd.  Everyone started talking again.  Mom came up to me.

      “Are you okay, sweetie,” Mom said.

      “I’m fine, Mom,” I said.

      “Can you two sing some songs together,” Mom said.  Nick and I went to the stage.

      “Okay, everyone, welcome, I would like to congratulate my mother and my new stepfather, I hope you two are very happy together, and I am happy to have a stepbrother, Derek,” I said.  He waved.

      “Okay, this is my wonderful boyfriend, Nick Carter, we are going to sing some songs together,” I said.   Nick and I sang Love Will Find A Way, In Another’s Eyes, From This Moment On, Just to Hear You Say That You Love Me, and Still Holdin On.  Brian came up and all three of us sang If You See Him, If You See Her.  After we were done, everyone clapped and cheered. Nick and I hugged. 

      “Okay, how about a performance from the Backstreet Boys,” I said.  Brian, Howie, AJ, and Kevin joined Nick onstage. I blew a kiss at Nick and got off the stage and joined Leighanne, Kristen, and Amanda.  Kevin went over to Mom.  He asked her something and she nodded smiling.  The guests were cheering. The guys took off their suit jackets and got out some headsets and put them on.  Everyone backed up. They got on the dance floor.

      “Let’s party!” Mom said.

      “Are you ready to party!” Kevin said.  Larger Than Life started up and they performed that song.  They danced.  I saw Mom and Tom dancing a little and cheering. Derek was cheering.  Everyone was cheering. Even Adam was joining in. After that song was over, they performed Back To Your Heart.  Then they performed All I Have to Give. They found hats to use.  They performed The One and I Want It That Way.  After they were done, everyone cheered.  They took off the headsets and grabbed their jackets and came over.  Nick and I hugged. Mom and Tom left.  The guests started leaving.  I was sitting down talking to Howie. Nick was giving me a shoulder rub. 

      “Does that feel good, Bri?” Howie asked.

      “Oh yeah, he’s good with his hands,” I said looking up at Nick.  He leaned down and kissed my forehead. 

      “You know how good my hands are,” Nick whispered in my ear.  I smiled up at him.

      “Oh, I know,” I said.

Chapter 9

Three years later, Nick and I were engaged.  Leighanne had a baby.  She named her Gracie Lynn Littrell.  Amanda and AJ got married.  Kristen is four months pregnant.  The guys got me a music career and now I’m the Princess of Pop.  I was in New York appearing on the Rosie O'Donnell Show. 

      “Here is a girl who knows how to perform, her second album, Oops I Did It Again, has gone 12x platinum, her first single and album landed at number one on the Billboard Charts, here she is, performing her third single off her second album, here’s Britney Hardin!” Rosie said.  My dancers and I performed Stronger.  After I was done, Rosie came over to me.

      “We’ll be right back with Britney!” Rosie said.  We sat down.  After the commercial was over, we were back on. 

      “We are here with Britney Hardin, Britney, how are you,” Rosie said.

      “I’m terrific,” I said.

      “You are engaged to Nick Carter of the Backstreet Boys,” Rosie said.

      “Yeah,” I said smiling.

      “You two have been together for four years, how did you two meet?” Rosie asked.

      “Well, I won this contest to go on tour with the Backstreet Boys for a year, I went down to Florida and met the guys, spent the whole year with them, and during that year, Nick and I realized we had deep feelings for each other and we got together,” I said.

      “If anyone didn’t know, Nick is the fourth Backstreet Boy to be getting married,” Rosie said.

      “But don’t worry, Howie’s still single and he’s still looking,” I said.

      “You mean Howie hasn’t found a girl yet?” Rosie asked.

      “Nope, he’s really picky about women, Nick, Brian, AJ, Kevin, and I were talking yesterday and we decided that we should do something about that,” I said. 

      “Hey, set him up on a date,” Rosie said.

      “We talked about it, are you busy any time,” I said.

      “Whoa!” Rosie said.  I laughed.

      “Just kidding!” I said.

      “I don’t date younger men, okay, you had a broken heart before you met the guys, right,” Rosie said.

      “Yeah, I did, my ex-boyfriend cheated on me and dumped me for another girl, I got over it when I met Nick,” I said.

      “And your song, Stronger, is dedicated to your ex,” Rosie said. 

      “Yeah, I was in my hometown visiting my mother and stepfather, I bumped into him and he was going like, you need me, you can’t survive without me, and you belong with me, so I told him to buy my second album and listen to Stronger, I told him it was dedicated to him, I don’t know if he did or not, but I don’t need him anymore, I’m happy with Nick and I know Nick’s the one for me,” I said.

      “What’s your ex’s number, let’s call him up, what’s his name,” Rosie said.

      “Adam,” I said. I gave her the number.  She dialed.

      “Hello,” he said over the speakers. Everyone heard him. 

      “Adam, this is Rosie O'Donnell, how are you,” Rosie said.

      “Fine, I can’t believe this,” Adam said.

      “Are you watching TV right now?” Rosie asked.

      “Yeah,” Adam said.

      “Are you watching my show?” Rosie said.

      “Just a sec, I just turned it on,” Adam said.

      “I have a guest on here, whom you know, say hi to Britney,” Rosie said. I waved to the camera.

      “Hi, Britney,” Adam said in a sexy tone.

      “So, Adam, did you go out and buy Britney’s second album,” Rosie asked.

      “Not yet,” Adam said.

      “Have you heard her new single, Stronger?” Rosie asked.

      “No, I haven’t, I don’t usually listen to pop,” Adam said.

      “Well, do you want to hear the song,” Rosie said.

      “Sure, I guess, she said it was dedicated to me, so yeah, I want to hear it,” Adam said.  Rosie turned on her stereo and the song played. After the song was over, Rosie turned off her stereo.

      “Adam, are you still there?” Rosie asked.

      “Yeah, I’m here,” Adam said.

      “Do you get what I’m trying to say, Adam, leave me alone!” I said. 

      “Bye, Adam,” Rosie said.  She hung up the phone.

      “Okay, let’s move on, you recently did a concert in Hawaii,” Rosie said.

      “Yeah, it’s so wonderful down there, I didn’t want to leave,” I said.

      “Did Nick go with you?” Rosie asked.

      “Yes, he insisted on going, he told me that he wasn’t going to let me go by myself,” I said.

      “Sounds like he’s crazy about you,” Rosie said.

      “Yeah, the other guys tease him about it,” I said.

      “Let’s watch your last song on there, is that okay,” Rosie said. I smiled.

      “Sure,” I said. 

Her TV rose and it turned on and we watched Baby One More Time in Hawaii.  After it was over, Rosie looked at me.

      “You also have a great video out for Stronger, let’s watch that,” Rosie said.  The video played.  After it was over, the TV went away.  Rosie smiled.

      “And I understand that Nick and Brian directed your videos for Stronger and Oops I Did It Again,” Rosie said.

      “Yeah, they did, and Nick didn’t like the dress I wore in Stronger, he thought it was showing too much, but I wore it anyways,” I said.

      “And what happened?” Rosie asked.

      “I told him that I have the body for that dress, I said that I have a great body and I want to show some of it off, he even criticized me when I started wearing midriffs,” I said.

      “He’s just being protective, he doesn’t want other guys looking at what he gets to,” Rosie said.

      “Hey, I told him that I would always remain committed to him, and I have, I have not once looked at other guys in the way I look at him,” I said.

      “You are doing a great job,” Rosie said.

      “Thanks,” I said.

      “Now the concert in Hawaii will air on Fox on June 4^th, right,” Rosie said.

      “Yeah, that’s what I was told,” I said.

      “Okay, we have questions from the internet, okay first one, what is your favorite new movie, from Michelle in Orlando,” Rosie said.

      “My favorite movie, it has to be Miss Congeniality, with Sandra Bullock, it was so funny,” I said.

      “I like Sandra Bullock, she’s a great actress,” Rosie said.

      “Yeah, she is, she’s Brian’s favorite, he loves her and he really wants to meet her,” I said.

      “Maybe he will, okay, second question, what do you sleep in, from David in Albany,” Rosie said.

      “A pair of Nick’s boxers, and a T-shirt,” I said.

      “Nick has boxers,” Rosie said.

      “Yeah, doesn’t every guy have boxers,” I said.

      “Well, when they were on here, they had a question like that and Nick said he wears boxer briefs,” Rosie said.

      “Well, he wears those, too, he has boxers, also, I just grabbed a pair out of his drawer and that’s that,” I said.

      “Okay, moving on, when you performed your first show on your own tour, were you nervous or ready,” Rosie said.

      “I was really nervous at first but once I got out onstage, I loosened up and got into it, I mean, coming out to see your own stage, set up the way you like it to be, it’s really unbelievable,” I said.

      “Okay, one more question, will you sing another song,” Rosie said.

      “Certainly,” I said.   After the commercial, I was onstage with my dancers. 

      “Here she is, performing her second single off her first album, here’s Britney Hardin with Sometimes,” Rosie said. The dancers and I performed Sometimes.  After I was done, Rosie came over and hugged me.

      “Britney Hardin, everyone, thank you, Britney, for being here on the show, I hope you are very happy, and invite me to the wedding,” Rosie said.

      “I will, when we set the date,” I said.  She smiled. 

      “Britney is starting her US tour next month, be sure to check out the tour dates, if you get tickets, you are in for one amazing show, thank you, we’ll be right back with Julia Roberts!” Rosie said.  The dancers and I went backstage and got out stuff together and headed for the airport.   We flew back to Orlando.  We all got into our cars and went home.  I pulled into the driveway of mine and Nick’s house.  I got out and saw it dark.  I looked at the time and saw that it was midnight.  I knew Nick was probably in bed.  I quietly went in and closed the door.  I put my bags down and went into the kitchen and got out a glass and filled it with water and took a drink. I sat down at the table and drank my water and thought about everything.  I felt arms wrap around me and lips on my neck. 

      “Hey, baby, great show,” Nick said.

      “Thanks,” I said.  I looked up at him.  He kissed my lips softly.

      “Are you tired?” Nick asked.

      “Yeah, exhausted, I got jetlag,” I said.  He took my glass and put it in the sink and picked me up and carried me up to our bedroom. I changed into my T-shirt and Nick’s boxers and got into bed.  Nick got into bed and pulled me close.

      “I love you, baby,” Nick said.

      “I love you, too, night,” I said.

      “Night,” Nick said.  He kissed my forehead.  I rested my head on his chest.  We fell asleep holding each other.

Chapter 10

The next morning, Nick woke up and saw Bri asleep.  He turned and laid there and watched her sleep. He brushed a piece of hair back from her face.  She stirred and opened her eyes and saw him and smiled.

      “Morning, beautiful,” Nick said.

      “Morning, what time is it?” I asked.

      “Eight o’clock,” Nick said.  I groaned and turned over on my side facing away.  He wrapped his arms around me and kissed my neck.  I smiled.

      “Still tired, baby,” Nick said.

      “Yeah, I want to go back to sleep,” I said. 

      “Well, then go back to sleep,” Nick said.

      “What are you going to do?” I asked.

      “I don’t know, I could lay here with you and hold you while you sleep,” Nick said.

      “Could you, I want that,” I said.

That evening, Nick and I were cuddled up in the living room on the couch, watching TV.   He pulled me into his lap. I straddled his lap.  His hands were on my hips.   We kissed deeply and passionately.  I pulled back and looked at Nick.

      “What’s wrong?” Nick asked.

      “What are you thinking?” I asked.

      “Making love,” Nick said.  He began kissing my neck. 

      “Nick,” I said.  But he didn’t listen.  I knew he was seducing me. Nick pulled my mouth to his again in a hungry kiss.  He nibbled on my neck and throat eliciting a moan from me.

“I want you baby.”  He whispered in my ear.  His hand went to my breast and caressed it as he held my body to him with his other hand.  He could feel me weakening to his attentions and it spurred him on.  He knew the power he had over me and he was prepared to use it.

“You’re not playing fair.” I mumbled as Nick continued his attack on my senses. 

“I know.” Nick said before his lips captured mine again, thrusting his tongue into my mouth and I finally responded in kind.   He moaned into my mouth as our tongues dueled, teased, tasted, trying our best to drive each other crazy.  Nick broke the kiss and spoke into my neck as he nibbled on my earlobe.

“I want you too much to play fair.”  He took my hand and placed in on his erection. 

“Please, I need you so badly right now.” With his hand on my throat, he used his thumb pushing my chin, tilting my head so he could caress my throat with tender lips. As soon as Nick caressed my tender spot on my throat with his tongue and tender lips, I was all his.  I was so far gone, he could have carried me outside and taken me in the front yard for all I cared.  His lips and hands felt so good all I wanted was for him to keep doing what he was doing.  I knew he was seducing me so I would give in and make love, and I really didn’t care anymore.  All I cared about was how this wonderful blond God was making me feel.  His lips traveled back to my ear and he whispered his love for me and what he wanted to do to me….. for me….. with me.   His kisses were greedy and his hands seemed to be everywhere. My soft moaning made him want me even more.  I was breathing faster and clutching at him, letting him know he had finally gotten to me. 

“I want to be cocooned inside you where heaven is Baby.  I want to love you and be loved by you.” He whispered in my ear.   I put my hands on his shoulders and pushed him back.  Our eyes locked in an unspoken conversation.  Finally, I stood up and pulled my shirt off, throwing it behind me.  I bent over and put my hands on Nick’s shorts. He smiled and raised his bottom off the couch and I pulled them off him, leaving Nick sitting on the couch naked with his length at full attention.  I took in the grandeur of his body and the part of him that cried out for attention. 

“Do you hurt at all?” I asked him.  Nick held his length in his hand. 

“This is the only part of me that hurts and it hurts because it needs to be buried deep inside you.” I got back on his lap in the same position that I had just left.

“I love you,” I said before I captured his lips.   As we continued to kiss, Nick pulled my hips as close as he could get them and rocked his hips so his length rubbed against my wetness, massaging my nubbin, finally sending me to that place where I would only find contentment if Nick was buried deep within me.  I could take no more. I rose to my knees kissing Nick hard. 

“Now Nicky.” He guided me down onto his length, dragging soft moans from both of us as he filled me. Nick pulled my mouth to his in a ravenous kiss that lasted and lasted as I began to move on him with his hands guiding my hips showing me just what he wanted.  He pulled me closer and held me tighter as I wrapped my arms around his head and neck, cradling his head to me. There was very little room to move, but it didn’t seem to bother us.  As long as we were together, in each other’s arms, connected and our bodies pressed together as close as we could be, we were content. Soon, our passion intensified into an urgency that took control.  Our hands touched, caressed, clawed and clutched at each other.  My soft moans as he pleasured me drove him even further to the point of desperately needing to find release. 

“I love you Bri.” He whispered into my neck as he devoured it.  “I didn’t think it was possible to love someone this much. But, my God, I do love you.”  Hearing the need in Nick’s voice, my eyes welled up.  I held him even tighter as I took him deep within me with stronger and more forceful movements.  When Nick’s hands went to my hips pulling them down even harder as he began to thrust up so hard, his bottom came off the couch then crashed back down only to thrust up again, I was hit by an orgasm so intense I actually felt dizzy. 

“Ohhhhooo.” Feeling my walls stroke him with vice like strength, Nick lost all control, growling as he thrust up one final time, finding his release with wave after wave of his seed spurting deep within me, as he whimpered. He clutched me so tightly; he lost himself in me, as tears filled his eyes from the intensity of his emotions. 

“God Nick. That was......” I said.

“I know. Pretty incredible.” We held each other, rocking gently, soothing each other, loving each other.  Both with our head on the other’s shoulders. 

“I love you Nicky.”  I whispered into Nick’s neck. 

“I love you.”  Nick pulled back and looked at me with teary eyes.  He cupped my face and gently kissed me, then pulled me to him again.  We laid down on the couch and went to sleep.

Chapter 11

Three weeks later, I was out on tour.  I missed Nick.  I was sitting backstage.  TJ came over and sat beside me.

      “Hey, girl, you okay?” TJ asked.

      “I really miss Nick, I can’t stop thinking about him, TJ, I miss him so much,” I said. 

      “Three more months and you will get to see him,” TJ said. I looked at TJ.

      “Three long months, TJ, I want to see him now,” I said.

      “Maybe you can,” TJ said.  I looked up and saw Nick come in with AJ and Howie.  I smiled and got up and ran to Nick.  He smiled.  I jumped on him and hugged him tight.

      “I missed you so much,” I said.

      “I missed you, too,” Nick said. 

      “Bri, it’s show time,”  Fatima said.  I got up and went over to her.  I blew Nick a kiss.  He pretended that he caught it and put it on his cheek.  I smiled.  I went on and performed.  After the show, I came backstage and went to shower.  I closed the door and locked it. I was showering when I felt arms around my waist and lips on my neck.  I looked and saw Nick.

      “Hey, sexy lady, I thought I would join you,” Nick said.

      “Oh, really,” I said smiling.  We showered and got dressed.  We went to my hotel room and collapsed on the bed and made love.  We fell asleep holding each other.

Three days later, I heard the guys were going to be on the Tonight Show.  Nick had left for New York City the same time I left for the next city. I was sitting in my suite with my dancers.  We had soda and popcorn. 

      “Which song are they going to sing?” TJ asked.

      “More Than That,” I said.

The show started.  Forty minutes later, the guys came on and sang More Than That.  Afterwards they went to sit down.

They were showing the Rolling Stones picture of the guys with naked women.

      “So Kevin, your wife was okay with this?” Jay asked.

      “She was cool, they weren’t really naked,” Kevin said.

      “The computer made it look like they were,” Jay said.

      “Yeah,” Kevin said.

      “Nick, we heard you’re engaged, congratulations, we recently had Britney on the show, nice ring,” Jay said.

      “Well, I saw it in the jewelry store and I said to myself, that’s the ring I want to give to her, so I got it, it cost a lot but she’s worth it,” Nick said.

      “Have you seen her new video?” Jay asked.

      “No, not yet,” Nick said.

      “Then maybe you shouldn’t,” Jay said.

      “Why?” Nick asked.  His TV rose and the video played.  After the video was over, the TV went back down.  Nick had a weird look on his face. 

      “That’s why,” Jay said.  Nick sat back and buried his face in his hands. 

      “Oh man,” Nick said. 

      “It’s just a video, Nick, she’s crazy about you,” AJ said quietly.  Nick shrugged and smiled. 

      “You all have a hidden talent, right,” Jay said.

      “Yeah,” Howie said.

      “I can turn my eyelids inside out,” Kevin said. He did just that. 

      “And Nick can belch on command,” Jay said.

      “Oh yeah, he’s got to have a carbonated drink,” Kevin said. 

      “Let’s hear it,” Jay said.  They handed Nick a coke. 

      “Oh man, okay, Mom, Britney, they made me do it,” Nick said.  He took a drink and put it down and made everyone be quiet.  He belched.  Everyone laughed and clapped.  I laughed. My dancers were laughing.  The show was over after Brian did his Donald Duck impression.  I turned off the TV.  My dancers went to their rooms.  I went into the bedroom and got into bed.  I closed my eyes and went to sleep.  In the middle of the night, I woke up to the phone ringing.  I reached over and picked it up.

      “Whoever this is better have a good reason for waking me up in the middle of the night,” I said sleepily.

      “I do have a good reason,” Nick said.

      “What reason is that, I saw the show, how could you do that!” I said pretending to be angry.

      “What,” Nick said.

      “Belching on public television in front of everyone, the whole world,” I said.

      “They made me do it,” Nick said.

      “I know, I was just kidding,” I said.

      “Why you little,” Nick said.

      “I know you didn’t like the video, I called and talked to Jeff, he said he will schedule a remake of the video with a different idea,” I said.

      “It’s not that I hated the video, it’s just that you were kissing that guy and showing your body a little, I think I caught a glimpse of one of your breasts during the video,” Nick said.

      “I know, anyway I have an idea about the remake, no kissing guys, clothes on, like shorts and a T-shirt, and something else, I don’t know, not like this one,” I said.

      “Whatever you want to do, baby, I’m behind you,” Nick said.

      “Now about that belching, that was pitiful,” I said.

      “Oh really,” Nick said.  He belched into the phone.

      “You should’ve done that one,” I said.

      “I miss you,” Nick said.

      “I miss you, too, I better go, I’m so tired,” I said.

      “I’ll call you later tomorrow, okay,” Nick said.

      “You better, I love you,” I said.

      “I love you, too, baby, bye,” Nick said.

      “Bye babes,” I said.  I hung up the phone and went to sleep dreaming of Nick and me.

Chapter 12

Three weeks later, Nick was home watching TRL.

      “Okay, we just received a remake of Britney’s video, Don’t Let Me Be The Last To Know, MTV took the first one off the air completely, apparently the video was causing problems between Britney and her fiancee, Backstreet Boy Nick Carter, John Norris caught up with Britney on tour, here’s the interview,” Carson said.  They showed Britney and John.  Nick smiled when he saw her.

      “So, you remade the video for your new single Don’t Let Me Be The Last to Know, how was it causing problems between you and Nick?” John asked.

      “Well, in the video, I was kissing another guy, it was the directors idea and he thought it would be cool for me to be with a guy, kissing me and hanging all over him, I didn’t feel comfortable but I wanted it to be a good video, so I went along with it, then when Nick saw it, I saw his face and I called up my manager and asked if I could remake the video,” Britney said.

      “And it showed some of your body,” John said.

      “Yeah, I didn’t like that either, neither did Nick, so I hope this remake of it is a whole lot better,” Britney said.
      “We hope so, too,” John said.  It went back to Carson.

      “Here’s the remake of Don’t Let Me Be The Last To Know,” Carson said.  They showed the video.  After it was over, everyone was clapping and cheering.

      “That was the remake of Don’t Let Me Be The Last To Know, I personally think that one was better than the original,” Carson said.

Nick smiled and continued watching TV.  The phone rang.

      “Hello,” Nick said.

      “Hey babe, did you see the video?” I asked.

      “Yeah, it was great, Carson liked it,” Nick said.

      “I hope everyone does, too,” I said.

      “I miss you,” Nick said.

      “I miss you, too, I’ll see you in three weeks, okay,” I said.

      “I’ll be counting down the days until you return and I can be inside you, if you know what I mean,” Nick said in a sexy tone.

      “I think I do, I miss you so much,” I said.

      “I love you,” Nick said.

      “I love you, too, I better get going, I’ll talk to you later,” I said. 

      “Okay, bye, baby,” Nick said.

      “Bye, babes,” I said.  Nick hung up the phone and smiled. 

Three weeks later, Nick was sitting in the living room when the front door opened and he saw Bri come in.  He smiled and got up and she put her bags down and jumped on him.  She wrapped her arms around his neck and her legs around his waist.  They kissed. 

      “I missed you so much,” I said.

      “I missed you, too, baby,” Nick said as he kissed my neck.  I pulled back and looked at him.

      “Take me upstairs, Nick,” I said.  He carried me up to our bedroom and laid down on the bed.  He pulled me down on top of him. We kissed deeply.  I pulled off his shirt.  He pulled my shirt off and unclipped my bra and pulled it off and threw it on the floor. His hands came up and cupped my breasts.  We got up.  He unbuttoned my jeans and slid them down.  He tossed them across the room.  He slid my panties off and tossed them aside.  He guided me to the bed and sat me down on the edge of the bed.  He knelt down on the floor and pushed my legs apart.  He slipped two fingers inside me.  I moaned.  He smiled and pulled them out.  He licked my hidden folds. I moaned.  He thrusted his tongue inside me.  I felt an orgasm flow through my body.  I came into his mouth and he swallowed every single drop.  He stood up and I stood up and unbuttoned his jeans. I pushed them off along with his boxers.  I knelt down and took him into my mouth.  He moaned in pleasure.  I sucked, caressed, and bit his erection.  He shot his hot load into my mouth.  I swallowed every drop.  I let him go and stood up.  He kissed me deeply.  He tasted himself as his tongue roamed my mouth.  Our tongues met in a passionate duel.  He moved towards the bed and we laid down kissing.  He spread my legs with his knee and laid between them.  He kissed my lips and then my neck.  His kiss trailed down to my chest to my breasts and he took one into his mouth and sucked on the nipple.  I moaned in pleasure. He moved back up and kissed my lips again.  He entered me with one hard thrust.  Our hips moved together.  He was going fast.

      “Oh god, Nick, harder, faster,” I moaned.  He put my legs over his shoulders and plunged into me.  He went faster and harder. I screamed his name.  He pulled out and slammed back into me.  He went faster and harder.  I contracted around him.  With one final thrust, he came fast and hard, spilling his seed deep inside me.  He let my legs slip from his shoulders.  He laid on top of me and we kissed.  He pulled back and looked at me and smoothed my damp hair back from my face.  He kissed my lips softly.

      “You’re so beautiful, how am I so lucky,” Nick said.

      “We’re both lucky,” I said.  He smiled and kissed my lips again.  He moved his lips to my neck and devoured it.  My hands ran up and down his back.  He slid off of me and pulled me close. 

      “Oh Bri, I missed you so much,” Nick said kissing my forehead.

      “I missed you, too,” I said resting my head on his chest.  We fell asleep holding each other.

A week later, we were sitting in the living room when the phone rang. I reached over and grabbed it.

      “Hello,” I said.

      “Bri, it’s Mom, honey, I have some bad news,” Mom said.

      “What is it,” I said.  I grabbed Nick’s hand.

      “Grandpa Hardin died yesterday,” Mom said.

      “Oh my god,” I said as tears came to my eyes.

      “Can you come home?” Mom asked.

      “Yeah, I’ll be there, okay, bye,” I said. I hung up.

      “What’s wrong, baby,” Nick said.

      “My grandfather died yesterday, my father’s father, I have to go back,” I said.

      “I’ll go with you,” Nick said.

      “Get the guys, my mother might want you guys to sing at the funeral,” I said. Nick called the guys.

      “They are meeting us at the airport,” Nick said.  We packed a bag and went to the airport and met Brian, Howie, AJ, and Kevin there.  Brian came forward and hugged me.

      “You okay?” Brian asked.

      “No,” I said. We got on the plane and went to Missouri. We rented two cars and went to my mother’s house.  Nick pulled into the driveway and came to a stop and we got out. My mother came out of the house.

      “Oh Bri,” Mom said.  We hugged.  We all went inside.  Derek got up and we hugged.  We sat down.  Nick sat down beside me and held my hand.

      “Mom, how did it happen?” I asked.

      “Well, last night, Carmen called and saw that Norma was trying to get ahold of him, she called Carmen and Carmen called here, Tom and I went in and found him in his apartment, he was at the kitchen table, Cheryl, Carmen, and Carol are coming over to make the funeral arrangements,” Mom said.

      “So you aren’t going to do anything,” I said.

      “No, Bri, I’m not a part of the family, but you are, they want you to come in and help,” Mom said.

      “What time?” I asked.

      “They should be in there now,” Mom said.

      “Allright,” I said getting up. I sat back down.

      “Bri, you okay?” Mom asked.

      “Just dizzy, Nick, can you drive me in, I don’t think I can,” I said.  Nick nodded and helped me up and we went in town to the funeral home. I saw my aunts’ cars.  We went in and I saw Cheryl, Carol, Keith, and Carmen talking with Mark.  Carmen saw me and came over.

      “Oh Bri,” Carmen said hugging me.

      “Hi Carmen,” I said.

      “And who is this?” Carmen said.

      “This is Nick, my fiancee,” I said.

      “Hi, I’m Carmen, Bri’s aunt,” Carmen said.

      “Hi,” Nick said. Cheryl, Carol, and Keith came over.

      “Who is this guy?” Keith asked.

      “This is my fiancee, Nick, this is my uncle Keith, my aunts, Carol and Cheryl,” I said.

      “He shouldn’t be here,” Keith said. Carol, Cheryl, and Carmen looked at Keith.

      “Keith, he came with Bri, okay, Bri was probably really upset and couldn’t drive in here,” Carol said.

      “Then maybe she shouldn’t have come in here,” Keith said.  I looked at Carol. 

      “I deserve to be here, Keith, he’s my grandfather, okay, I deserve to help,” I said.

      “Fine,” Keith said.  They started talking.

      “Anyone we should leave off the list,” Mark said.

      “Susan Huey, she’s no longer part of the family,” Keith said. Carol looked at him.

      “My mother should be there, Keith, I need her there,” I said.  Nick put his hand on my back for support.

      “Susan has always been like a sister to us, she should be there,” Carol said. 

      “She’s not a Hardin!” Keith said.

      “Well, you aren’t one either!” I said angrily.

      “I married one,” Keith said.

      “So did she, she married my father, your wife’s brother, she’s his widow, maybe you shouldn’t come to the funeral!” I said angrily.

      “Do you want to continue this another time?” Mark asked Cheryl.

      “Yes, sorry about this,” Cheryl said.

      “Keith, stop this right now, Bri’s right, her mother should come to the funeral, she is still a part of this family,” Carol said. 

      “Then I won’t be there!” Keith said.  He left.

      “I’m sorry, Carol,” I said.

      “It’s okay, Bri, come here,” Carol said hugging me.

      “I’m just upset and I want my mother there,” I said.

      “I know, I want her there, too,” Carol said. She pulled back and put her hands on my shoulders.

      “You look so much like your father, but you look like your mother, too, and you have your father’s eyes,” Carol said. I smiled.

      “Actually his was hazel,” I said.

      “And your mother’s is blue, mix that and you got brown eyes, you are a perfect combination of your parents,” Carol said hugging me again.

      “That’s true,” Carmen said.

      “Since Keith is gone, we can go ahead and finish the arrangements,” Cheryl said.

      “Yeah, let’s do that,” Carol said.  Mark came back and we sat down. 

      “Now, music, what are you going to have?” Mark asked.

      “I can sing,” Nick said.

      “You can,” Mark said.

      “He’s a Backstreet Boy, all five of them came with me, the other four are at my mother’s house,” I said.

      “What song can you guys sing?” Carol asked.

      “I have a tape of one,” I said. I put the tape in and Show Me The Meaning Of Being Lonely.  After the song was over, Carol, Cheryl, and Carmen talked.

      “Put the guys down, they are singing,” Carmen said.  Mark wrote it down.

      “Bri, I know you are a singer, do you have any songs you could sing,” Cheryl said.

      “Um, none that’s right for a funeral,” I said.

      “We have a song, Bri and I do, when is the funeral?” Nick asked.

      “In four days,” Mark said.

      “And the visitation is in three, so come on, Bri, let’s go,” Nick said pulling me out the door.  We went out to the mall and he got music for a song and went back to my mother’s house.  He walked with me behind him.

      “What song are you talking about, Nick?” I asked.  He played the music.

      “The one that Ricky and Christina sing together,” I said.

      “Yeah,” Nick said.

      “How about the song that Nick and Jessica sing together, Where You Are,” I said.

      “That’s better,” Nick said.  He got the music out and we practiced in the basement. 

Chapter 13

Four days later, we were at the funeral. The guys were in their seats.  I was downstairs with the family. 

      “Bri, where’s your mother?” Carol asked.

      “She’s sitting down with Tom and Derek,” I said.

      “She needs to be down here with you,” Carol said.

      “What about Keith,” I said.

      “He’s not here, I told him not to come,” Carol said.

      “I’ll go get her,” I said. I went upstairs and walked in and saw the guys sitting in back.  I went up to my mother.

      “Mom, Carol wants you downstairs,” I said.

      “What for?” Mom asked.

      “You sit with me and the family, come on,” I said. She got up and followed me out the door. I stopped and kissed Nick on the lips.  I went out and Mom and I went downstiars with the family. The reverend came down and we said a prayer.  As the family filed out, I pulled the reverend aside.

      “There’s been a change, instead of the duet, I’m singing by myself,” I said.  He nodded and I went up and walked in with my mother.  We sat down.  The reverend started talking and said a prayer and read the obitiuary.  Then the guys got up and performed Show Me The Meaning Of Being Lonely.  Brian, Howie, AJ, and Kevin sat down.  I got up and went up to Nick. I whispered in his ear. He smiled and nodded and kissed my cheek and went to his seat.  I sang Don’t Let Me Be The Last to Know.  I saw Adam watching me as I sang. After I was done, I sat down.  After the service was over, we got to see him one last time.  I saw him and started crying.  Nick got up and hugged me.  I rested my head on his shoulder and cried softly. We all went to the cemetary.  After the service there, we all went back to the church for dinner.  I walked outside.  I felt someone behind me and I turned and saw Adam. 

      “Why are you here?” I asked.

      “Because I need you,” Adam said.

      “Look, I’m engaged to Nick, okay, I never want to be with you again, all I got was pain, leave me alone!” I said angrily.

      “I can’t,” Adam said.  He grabbed me and kissed me. I pushed him back.

      “Get away from me!” I yelled. I wiped my mouth.

      “I can’t,” Adam said.

      “You are an idiot!” I yelled. I started walking in and I saw Nick standing there.  From the look on his face, I knew he saw the kiss. He shook his head and walked off.  I ran after him and grabbed his arm.

      “Don’t touch me!” Nick said angrily.

      “Nick, he kissed me, I didn’t kiss him,” I said.

      “Just stop it! I know what I saw! We’re over! The engagement is off!” Nick yelled.  He got into the rental car and drove off.  I sank down on the sidewalk and cried.  I felt arms around me. I looked up and saw Kevin.   He hugged me. I held onto him and cried.

      “Bri, what happened?” Kevin asked.

      “Adam kissed me, Nick saw it, he broke up with me!” I cried.  Kevin hugged me closer. He saw Adam. He stood up and went over to Adam.

      “You bastard!” Kevin yelled just as Brian, AJ, and Howie came out of the church with my mother, Carmen, Cheryl, Carol, Tom, and Derek.

      “What’s going on?” Derek said.

      “You so called friend just made Nick break up with Bri, he kissed her, Nick saw it, he broke up with Bri and left,” Kevin said.  Derek grabbed Adam and punched him.

      “You bastard, I told you not to go near her again!” Derek yelled.

      “I’m sorry,” Adam said.

      “Sorry, you don’t deserve forgiveness, you ruined my daughter’s life,” Mom said.  I stood there crying. Brian came over and hugged me.

      “I’ll talk to him, Bri,” Brian said.  I just cried.

Two days later, I returned to Orlando with the guys.  Brian and I arrived at the house and I saw all my stuff on the lawn.  I looked at Brian.  He went inside.  I gathered my stuff up.  I heard yelling inside.  Brian came out.

      “You can stay at my house,” Brian said.  I put my stuff in his car.  I felt eyes on me.  I turned and saw Nick in the window. I turned back around and got into Brian’s car. We went to his house. I put my stuff in the spare bedroom.  Leighanne came in. I told her what happened. She hugged me.  I laid down and stared out the window.  The next day, I went back over to Nick’s house.  I rang the doorbell.  He opened the door and saw me.

      “I’m not staying, I just want to make sure that I have everything,” I said.  He stepped aside and I went in and went upstairs.  I got the rest of my stuff.  I went downstairs and saw him on the couch.  I went over and took off the ring and handed it to him.

      “You probably want this back,” I said.  He grabbed it.  I hit him in the back of the head hard.  I turned and got my stuff.  I started for the door.

      “Why did you hit me?” Nick asked.

      “Because you deserved it,” I said.  He got up and came over to me and pulled me back and threw me on the couch.  He got on top of me. I looked at him.

      “What are you doing?” I said.

      “I’m sorry, for what I did, I was thinking a lot since yesterday, I thought you kissed him back but I thought last night, why would she want to kiss him, she hates him, I’m sorry about everything,” Nick said. 

      “Are you really?” I asked.

      “Yes, and I’ll prove it,” Nick said running his hands under my shirt.   He got up and pulled me up and he sat down.  He pulled me into his lap. I straddled his lap.  His hands were on my hips.  

      “What are you thinking?” I asked.

      “Making love,” Nick said.  He began kissing my neck. 

      “Nick,” I said.  But he didn’t listen.  I knew he was seducing me. Nick pulled my mouth to his in a hungry kiss.  He nibbled on my neck and throat eliciting a moan from me.

“I want you baby.”  He whispered in my ear.  His hand went to my breast and caressed it as he held my body to him with his other hand.  He could feel me weakening to his attentions and it spurred him on.  He knew the power he had over me and he was prepared to use it.

“You’re not playing fair.” I mumbled as Nick continued his attack on my senses. 

“I know.” Nick said before his lips captured mine again, thrusting his tongue into my mouth and I finally responded in kind.   He moaned into my mouth as our tongues dueled, teased, tasted, trying our best to drive each other crazy.  Nick broke the kiss and spoke into my neck as he nibbled on my earlobe.

“I want you too much to play fair.”  He took my hand and placed in on his erection. 

“Please, I need you so badly right now.” With his hand on my throat, he used his thumb pushing my chin, tilting my head so he could caress my throat with tender lips. As soon as Nick caressed my tender spot on my throat with his tongue and tender lips, I was all his.  I was so far gone, he could have carried me outside and taken me in the front yard for all I cared.  His lips and hands felt so good all I wanted was for him to keep doing what he was doing.  I knew he was seducing me so I would give in and make love, and I really didn’t care anymore.  All I cared about was how this wonderful blond God was making me feel.  His lips traveled back to my ear and he whispered his love for me and what he wanted to do to me….. for me….. with me.   His kisses were greedy and his hands seemed to be everywhere. My soft moaning made him want me even more.  I was breathing faster and clutching at him, letting him know he had finally gotten to me. 

“I want to be cocooned inside you where heaven is Baby.  I want to love you and be loved by you.” He whispered in my ear.   I put my hands on his shoulders and pushed him back.  Our eyes locked in an unspoken conversation.  Finally, I stood up and pulled my clothes off, throwing them behind me.  I pulled his shirt off. I bent over and put my hands on Nick’s shorts. He smiled and raised his bottom off the couch and I pulled them off him, leaving Nick sitting on the couch naked with his length at full attention.  I took in the grandeur of his body and the part of him that cried out for attention. 

“Do you hurt at all?” I asked him.  Nick held his length in his hand. 

“This is the only part of me that hurts and it hurts because it needs to be buried deep inside you.” I got back on his lap in the same position that I had just left.

“I love you,” I said before I captured his lips.   As we continued to kiss, Nick pulled my hips as close as he could get them and rocked his hips so his length rubbed against my wetness, massaging my nubbin, finally sending me to that place where I would only find contentment if Nick was buried deep within me.  I could take no more. I rose to my knees kissing Nick hard. 

“Now Nicky.” He guided me down onto his length, dragging soft moans from both of us as he filled me. Nick pulled my mouth to his in a ravenous kiss that lasted and lasted as I began to move on him with his hands guiding my hips showing me just what he wanted.  He pulled me closer and held me tighter as I wrapped my arms around his head and neck, cradling his head to me. There was very little room to move, but it didn’t seem to bother us.  As long as we were together, in each other’s arms, connected and our bodies pressed together as close as we could be, we were content. Soon, our passion intensified into an urgency that took control.  Our hands touched, caressed, clawed and clutched at each other.  My soft moans as he pleasured me drove him even further to the point of desperately needing to find release. 

“I love you Bri.” He whispered into my neck as he devoured it.  “I didn’t think it was possible to love someone this much. But, my God, I do love you.”  Hearing the need in Nick’s voice, my eyes welled up.  I held him even tighter as I took him deep within me with stronger and more forceful movements.  When Nick’s hands went to my hips pulling them down even harder as he began to thrust up so hard, his bottom came off the couch then crashed back down only to thrust up again, I was hit by an orgasm so intense I actually felt dizzy. 

“Ohhhhooo.” Feeling my walls stroke him with vice like strength, Nick lost all control, growling as he thrust up one final time, finding his release with wave after wave of his seed spurting deep within me, as he whimpered. He clutched me so tightly; he lost himself in me, as tears filled his eyes from the intensity of his emotions. 

“God Nick. That was......” I said.

“I know. Pretty incredible.” We held each other, rocking gently, soothing each other, loving each other.  Both with our head on the other’s shoulders. 

“I love you Nicky.”  I whispered into Nick’s neck. 

“I love you.”  Nick pulled back and looked at me with teary eyes.  He cupped my face and gently kissed me, then pulled me to him again.  We laid down on the couch and went to sleep.  Two hours later, I woke up and saw him looking back at me.

“Did I prove it?” Nick asked.

“Oh yeah,” I said smiling.

“Now go get your stuff and bring it back here,” Nick said.

I got up and he got up and got dressed.  I got dressed. He slid the ring back on my finger.

      “Don’t take that off again,” Nick said.  I smiled.  I went back to Brian’s and told them the news. They were happy. I got my stuff and went back. I walked in and put my stuff in the bedroom and unpacked. I went back downstairs.  I pulled him close. He smiled and we kissed.

      “If anything like that happens again, we talked it out, okay,” I said.

      “Okay,” Nick said kissing my neck.  He picked me up and carried me upstairs to our bedroom and put me down. He closed the door and locked it.  He laid down on the bed.  He pulled me down on top of him. We kissed deeply.  I pulled off his shirt.  He pulled my shirt off and unclipped my bra and pulled it off and threw it on the floor. His hands came up and cupped my breasts.  We got up.  He unbuttoned my jeans and slid them down.  He tossed them across the room.  He slid my panties off and tossed them aside.  He guided me to the bed and sat me down on the edge of the bed.  He knelt down on the floor and pushed my legs apart.  He slipped two fingers inside me.  I moaned.  He smiled and pulled them out.  He licked my hidden folds. I moaned.  He thrusted his tongue inside me.  I felt an orgasm flow through my body.  I came into his mouth and he swallowed every single drop.  He stood up and I stood up and unbuttoned his jeans. I pushed them off along with his boxers.  I knelt down and took him into my mouth.  He moaned in pleasure.  I sucked, caressed, and bit his erection.  He shot his hot load into my mouth.  I swallowed every drop.  I let him go and stood up.  He kissed me deeply.  He tasted himself as his tongue roamed my mouth.  Our tongues met in a passionate duel.  He moved towards the bed and we laid down kissing.  He spread my legs with his knee and laid between them.  He kissed my lips and then my neck.  His kiss trailed down to my chest to my breasts and he took one into his mouth and sucked on the nipple.  I moaned in pleasure. He moved back up and kissed my lips again.  He entered me with one hard thrust.  Our hips moved together.  He was going fast.

      “Oh god, Nick, harder, faster,” I moaned.  He put my legs over his shoulders and plunged into me.  He went faster and harder. I screamed his name.  He pulled out and slammed back into me.  He went faster and harder.  I contracted around him.  With one final thrust, he came fast and hard, spilling his seed deep inside me.  He let my legs slip from his shoulders.  He laid on top of me and we kissed.  He pulled back and looked at me and smoothed my damp hair back from my face.  He kissed my lips softly.

      “You’re so beautiful, how am I so lucky,” Nick said.

      “We’re both lucky,” I said.  He smiled and kissed my lips again.  He moved his lips to my neck and devoured it.  My hands ran up and down his back.  He slid off of me and pulled me close. 

      “Oh Bri, I love you,” Nick said kissing my forehead.

      “I love you, too,” I said resting my head on his chest.  We fell asleep holding each other.  

Chapter 14

Three months later, I was on tour.  I was lying in my hotel room.  TJ and Karissa were in there with me.

      “What is wrong with me,” I said.

      “How long have you been feeling like this?” TJ asked.

      “Three months,” I said.  Tania came in with a bag.

      “Here they are, Bri,” Tania said.  I took the bags and went into the bathroom and closed the door.  I got the tests out and looked at them. 

      “What if I’m pregnant,” I said.  I smiled. I took the test and waited.  I sat there and thought about Nick and the thought of being pregnant with his baby.  I looked at the test when time was up.  It was positive. I took the second test and it came out positive.  I squealed. I went out.

      “Well,” TJ, Karissa, and Tania said.

      “I’m pregnant!” I said.  They cheered and hugged me.

      “Call Nick,” TJ said.  I dialed the number and put it on speaker. 

      “Hello,” Nick said.

      “Hi honey, how’s it going!” I said smiling.

      “Hey girl, I miss you, how’s the tour,” Nick said.

      “Fine, except I can’t dance now,” I said.

      “Why not,” Nick said.

      “Well, I’ll be sitting down, now,” I said.

      “Why,” Nick said.

      “Nick, I’m trying to tell you something, I gave you clues, I can’t dance, I’ll be sitting,” I said.

      “Did you break your leg?” Nick asked.

      “No,” I said.

      “Did you hurt something, wait a minute, are you pregnant?” Nick said.

      “Congratulations, Nick!” TJ, Karissa, and Tania said.

      “Oh my god, I’m going to be a father,” Nick said.

      “Yes, sweetie, you are going to be a father,” I said. 

      “How far along are you?” Nick asked.

      “I think three months,” I said.

      “Oh Bri, I love you,” Nick said.

      “I love you, too,” I said.

      “Aww!” TJ, Tania, and Karissa said.

      “Quiet!” I said hitting them with a pillow.  They looked at me.  I shook my head.

      “No, guys, not in my condition, you guys!” I said as they started coming after me.

      “Yo, guys, stop it!” Nick said.  The door opened and Brian came in.

      “What’s going on in here!” Brian said.

      “She hit us with a pillow,” TJ said.

      “I called Nick, they wouldn’t be quiet,” I said.

      “Calm down, guys,” Brian said.

      “Brian, I’m three months pregnant, they are trying to hurt me,” I said.

      “No, guys, don’t hurt a pregnant lady, okay,” Brian said.  They went to their rooms.

      “Thanks, B,” I said.

      “No problem, is Nick still on the phone?” Brian said.

      “Hey Frick, what’s up!” Nick said.

      “Hey Frack, I guess you don’t want her dancing now, huh,” Brian said.

      “That will probably not be good for the baby, Bri, no more dancing until after the baby is born,” Nick said.

      “Fine,” I said. 

      “I better go so you can rest, I love you, Bri,” Nick said.

      “I love you, too, bye,” I said.

      “Bye,” Nick said.  I hung up and laid down. Brian sat down and stroked my forehead.

      “Rest, okay, Nick says so,” Brian said.

      “I will rest,” I said.

Three months later, the tour was over. Everyone was happy about my news.  All the fans were happy.  We returned to Orlando.  Brian took me home.  He carried my bags in for me. I hugged him.

      “Thanks, B,” I said.

      “Bye, Bri,” Brian said kissing my forehead and he left. 

      “Nick, are you home?” I called.

      “Yeah, I’m out back, baby girl!” I heard him call back. I went out back and saw him lounging in a lounge chair.  He saw me and his eyes widened and he got up and came over.

      “Hi sweetie,” I said.  He hugged me.

      “I missed you so much,” Nick said.

      “I missed you, too,” I said.  I felt the baby kick.

      “What was that?” Nick asked pulling back.

      “That would be your son or daughter kicking,” I said.

      “I still can’t believe this, we’re having a baby,” Nick said.

      “Yeah, I called my mother and Tom, they are happy for me, Derek told me that he can’t wait to be a stepuncle, Tom can’t wait to be a stepgrandfather, and my mother can’t wait to be a grandmother, did you call your parents?” I asked.

      “Yeah, they are flying out here today, so they can see you, they were thrilled, my mother couldn’t stop squealing in my ear, she was so happy,” Nick said.

      “I bet, oh my feet,” I said sitting down.

      “Do they hurt?” Nick asked.

      “They are throbbing,” I said.  He took my shoes off and massaged my feet.  I smiled.

      “How was the tour?” Nick asked.

      “Exhausting, I’m going up to rest, I’m so tired,” I said. He picked me up and carried me upstairs to our bedroom and laid me on the bed.  He laid beside me and leaned over me and kissed me passionately.

      “I missed holding you in my arms,” Nick said as he wrapped his arms around me.  I smiled.

            “I missed being in your arms,” I said.  We fell asleep holding each other.  The next morning, I woke up and saw Nick gone.  I slowly sat up and got up.  I went to the bathroom and I was looking in the mirror fixing my hair when I heard my name.

      “Bri, baby, where are you?” Nick asked.

      “I’m in the bathroom,” I said. He came in and smiled.

      “Morning, beautiful,” Nick said wrapping his arms around me and putting his hands on my stomach.

      “Morning, yourself,” I said looking up at him.  We kissed softly.